.. I want to go to Sabah bah ..

Salam ..
I really want to go to Sabah .. I think my father give permissions if our family's money is stabil .. Urgghhh !!! I really want to go Sabah .. I want to travel with my friends .. This doesn't means that I love my friends more than my family .. I want to have experience travelling with my friends too .. Just want to have tht experience .. The bajet is RM500 !!! OMG !! How I'm gonna collect that big amount of money in this short period of time ? How ? I really want to go there .. I dun know why but my heart feel like crazy ask me to go there .. Maybe something miracle waiting for me there .. I just wanna cry watching my friends at the airport .. OHHH !!!! I just can't controlled myself .. How ?? UURRRGGGHHH!!!!! I need way to go there .. I don't want to lose this chance .. I feel frusted !!