Page 90 of 366 : Just feel like writing ..

Salam .. How's life ? :) Well, for me .. Life is just life .. Nothing special happen .. Just ORDINARY things .. Actually, I feel kinda bad .. It suppose to be yesterday but NEGATIVE .. I think I know why he didn't call me .. Either he don't have credit or he's busy .. But .. Hmm .. Whatever la .. I MUST understand him bah .. semadi jak .. So, let's get talking .. about ... him .. What aa ? Dun have idea lah .. Friends ? Hmmm .. Okay .. Fasten your seatbelt for the take off .. :) *Serin's sentence ..


Okay .. Friends huh ? Rasanya suma orang ctok ada kawan kan ? Ifa pun ada .. And trust me .. All my friends are AWESOME ! Tpi byk lah kategori nya .. Firstly, couple friend .. Couple friend tok lah yang salu ada ngan kta .. For me, it's Amy .. Kmk duak kinda ada interest yang sama .. Otak pun lebih kurang jak .. Duak2 minat seni .. Bukan seni lukis k .. Amy lebih kepada music .. And me .. Lebih kepada photography .. Camera thingy .. Mok kata 100% xjuak .. tpi most of perange and rahsia Ifa nang ny tauk .. :) Kmk duak rpt sbb .. hmm .. Amy kinda emotional and Ifa kinda open minded .. So, kmk org tok nang sesuai lah ! hahah .. Ya la .. Saling memerlukan .. *KAMI BUKAN LESBIAN K .. FYI .. :)


Secondly, besties .. Besties Ifa ada 2 orang .. Serin and Shaey .. Cdak tok la orang yang rpt ngan Amy and Ifa .. Kinda fun ada cdak duak tok .. Serin tok .. Walaupun ny kdg2 emo ckit .. Tpi, she's fun ! Shaey lebih kepada happy go lucky .. Nang ketawa jak keja kalau kmk org duak dengan cdak duak tok .. Tpi cdak duak tok pande gik dri kmk duak Amy .. :) Tpi tahap kemalasan kmk org lebih kurang jak .. Plek tpi bna ! hahaha .. Cdak duak lah yang plg best kalau mok pakat2 tok .. ;) Best juak mun share mslh ngan cdak tok .. :)


Thirdly, best friends .. Ifa ada 3 org best friends .. :) Mic, Gloria and Sofia .. mmg kmk org kurang rpt tpi kmk org still kwn .. Jarang klaie ngan cdak tiga tok .. sbb cdak tok nang kuat ketawa .. nang best lah mun lepak ngan cdak tok .. Biasanya mun mok anok org, cdak tok lah ngembak juak .. kmk org pun apa gik ! mesti lah sokong cdak kalau ada org crik psl ngan cdak .. haha .. And kmk org tok .. Tunas Science 1 .. AWESOME huh ? heheh ..


Fourthly, friends .. Ifa ada byk friends .. tpi Ifa sebut mana yang ingat jak lah k ? :) 


Girls : Neesa, Lin, Sanah, Atikah, Ina, Hani .... *processing* xingt lah .. Sapa2 yang terasa ya, ny lh ya ! hehe .. ;)


Boys : Ajiq, Zac, Sam, Syl, Zaime, Charles, Clinton, Chris .. *processing* .. Same la .. Haha .. 


Most of kwn ifa tok school mate yang rapat .. :) Bukan rpt la .. Yang kenal2 gya jak .. hehe .. Friends tok ada cgek gik kategori ny .. Wait*


Lastly, classmate .. Classmate tok .. Hmm .. Sama jak ngan friends .. Tpi ya lah .. Knl sbg classmate jak .. Btw, just want to say something about classmate .. wlpn cuma classmate, kta xblh skati jak mok skitkan hati classmate kita .. well, kita study dlm kelas yang sama .. Tok dah msuk berthun2 pun .. *ya la .. Kan dah Form 4 .. Hadehh ..* and wlpun cuma classmate, kita xblh lah cayak ngan BESTFRIENDS or sapa2 yang tggi gik pangkat nya dri FRIENDS dalam friendlist kita .. Mksd ifa ctok .. Hmm .. Kalau la ada dua pihak yang gaduh .. and slh sorang dri pihak ya best friends kita and cgek pihak gik classmate kita, kita mesti lah dgr penjelasan duak2 pihak .. supaya kita tauk apa bnda yang jdi sbnrnya .. xkan lah kalau best friends kita pdh one of classmate kita block nya rah fb, lalu nak ngekot ? Kinda xlogik sbb bukan kita yang knk block .. xfhm juak la .. and wlpn classmate, kita mesti lah adil juak .. xkanlah suma bnda yang dibuat best friends kita ya betul nak ? No one's perfect .. Kan ? Ifa dah lalui pun bnda tok .. :') Kinda hurt tpi ifa tok cuma classmate jak, so Ifa rsa bgi ny, ifa tok xda hati kot .. ny lh kali hoo .. heheehe .. bah2 .. 


I think I should stop now .. :) Kawan2 ifa nang ssah mok crik .. Kalau jumpa pun, kwn tok rang lah juak ya ... Hahaha .. To my Tunas Science 1, LOVE YA ! You're awesome .. AWESOME I TELL YA ! hehe ..


*Cerita di atas yang under topik classmate ya, ifa crta pun hanya sebagai PENGAJARAN .. Ifa tauk mesti ada yang terasa .. Tpi, Ifa xsbut nama ktk org pun dlm tok .. So, jgn nak over2 .. Ifa xda malukan ktk org pun sbb readers xtauk pun sapa nak ? Ya la .. dah ifa xmention nama .. Plek juak ehh .. Mun yang tauk pun, org2 tertentu jak ... And untuk org2 tertentu ya, iboh nak emo2 k .. Kalau ktk org xmbik bnda tok in a positive way, terserah :) So, please la k .. :) Adieu .. Wasalam .. Peace out !

Page 85 of 366 : I'm back ? ;)

Salam .. Hey there ! What's up ! Hehe .. Okay2 .. So .. Sorry .. Hehe .. Busy with debate .. Tomorrow also I .. oppss .. WE got debate .. Ya .. We won and we're going to the quarter final .. Kinda surprise huh ? I know right ? It's unbelievable ! This is the very first time we joined debate and we won in the first round .. And yes .. Thanks for the wishes and prayer .. Appreciate it so much .. Hehe .. And we going to beat St. Jo for the next round .. Wow ! So nervous ! I kinda have a dream that we going to be the government .. If yes, so that means ... I am the one who going to be the first speaker .. WHAT??! yes .. That's why I feel kinda nervous .. Oh ya .. I also got a dream that we going to be the negative .. Hadeh2 .. I am so WORRIED .. Thap dewa ! ;/ But whatever it is .. I have to be the best .. Madam put hopes on us .. Ya us .. So, the competition will be held in the afternoon .. At 1p.m. At least we still got time to prepare ourself .. We going to prove to that guy that we can do it although if we didn't win .. ho yeah ! ;) that's the spirit ! hehe ...


Okay .. Enough about debate .. Hmm .. Any interesting topic ? Oh yea .. Let's talk about life .. Hmm .. I kinda wanted to use other language .. Hehe .. Ju klaka sarawak kita denk ! hehe .. Okay2 .. Since ada debate tok, my life nang busy kdak apa jak .. Bruk teringat .. Last week .. eh2 .. this week lah ya nak ? hehe .. auk2 .. kmk org debaters tok knk quarantine .. the whole week .. tpi kmk org dibenarkn pergi kls untuk CRITICAL SUBJECT .. ya pun kalau kmk org maok la .. hehe .. tpi hari khamis ngan jumaat, kmk org xda msuk cgek pun .. Let me crta dri hari khamis .. bgn pgi mcm besa .. kak ya, kmas2 .. pergi rmh nenek .. ambik Hail ngan Eqah .. kak ya, I told my kakak that I forgot my fail .. dlm fail ya, suma brg debate .. dah lah xda apa2 dlm beg ya ! buku crta, pencilcase dgn bku catatan jak .. sampe2 sekolah jak, I approach serin .. I told her that I forgot my material .. ny mejal suruh call my sis .. I know that my sis xkan mok hntar .. so, I broke into tears .. #congek .. I used to be a strong girl .. xtauk lah .. mungkin byk gilak bnda ngaco .. malu bah ! Delesto, the new guy ... ny tgga me cried .. hadehhh .. so much ! #malu .. so, last2 ya .. km pergi jumpa madam .. dengan mata berair ya .. pdh lah psl bnda ya .. Madam x mrh .. and I thought that ny akan mrh you ! heheh .. kak ya, I tried to calm myself down .. Madam pdh, I'll be helping Adib with his speech .. And because of I didn't bring suma bnda ya, practice ptg ya cancel ! betapa bahagia asa nya .. wlpn msh ada rsa malu nangis depan Ales .. hahah .. blit ya, call lah kakak .. ny pdh .. ny xmok ambik .. so, Ifa ekot my cousin jak blit .. kak ya, pg shell mintak kunci rmh .. ny xmok bgik .. I was like .. WHATTT ???!! ny pdh klk kmk org main internet ..hadeh .. lmk2 tok xda juak apa2 .. then, ny suruh stay rmh Mok lok .. ok lah .. so, tggu rmh nenek jap .. terkudong Mok mok jumpa dgn atok .. kak ya tek, blit lah rmh trus .. terkudong nya juak dah sampe rmh tek .. and yes .. msa otw ke rmh ya, I cried again .. hadehh .. nang congek ! #truestory ..sampe2 rmh, tgga internet xda .. I dun even care actually .. Then, I prepare myself mok tgga Alvin and The Chipmunk : Chipwrecked .. Msak maggi kari .. kak ya, bwk msuk blit .. ambik ice cream .. kuih cincin .. a bottle of water .. kak ya, keropok ikan ... set up suma .. ddk atas katil .. bukak lappy .. kunci pintu .. kak ya, mkn puas2 .. hahah .. #LikeASir .. ;D kak ya, suma jdi normal blit .. ifa decide mok call abg .. so, call lah abg .. sesi meluahkan perasaan dah mula .. masa tgh on call ya, abg mcm besa la .. nang try mok calm ifa down .. cause I'm crying again ! before ya, nangis gik ...


Hadehh .. nang sensitive lalu ! =.=' So, msa tgh on call dgn abg ya, ya dah msk kali keempat dh nangis hari ya .. kali ketiga nangis ya, sbb gadoh dgn Mr. A .. tgh on call gik ya .. x sangka juak .. The very first time kmk duak cakap otp nang xbgus lalu .. ya lah .. gadoh bah ! hadehhh .. continue .. so .. all and all .. nang nangis jak lah keja hari ya .. and mlm ya, Mr. A call ifa gik .. we talking2 .. tpi xsekasar msa kmk duak on call ptg ya .. tba2 .. terputus .. hadehh .. phl gik tok ehh .. dah lah nya main guitar .. masa tgh otp .. mok tauk ? Automatic ingat kat Aiman .. #myex .. Ya lah .. dlok Aiman salu main guitar msa kmk duak otp .. siap belagu indah .. nang sweet lalu eh ! I miss that MOMENT .. hahah .. okay2 .. xmok lah pk psl nya gik .. buat sakit hati jak pun .. #truestory .. kak ya, ifa on call dgn .. aaa .. dgn sapa oo ? lpk dh bah .. jap2 .. recap2 .. ya ! Abg aleep .. hehe .. ny bruk hbs event juak .. kempen apa entah .. hehe .. kak ya, pkul 12 bruk dpt tdo .. ya lah .. before ya dh tdo dah .. 2 jam .. bgn pkul 9.30 .. ;) pande2 lah kira oo .. kak ya, keesokannya ...


mok tauk x apa jdi ? kmk org knk mrh MR V*** .. sapa rsa ny tauk ya, diam jak lah oo .. kmk org knk pggl .. kak ya, mok tauk x ? haha .. auk bh2 .. kmk org knk pggl berdiri dpn kls ya .. suma kwn2 sekelas kmk org knk ddk ats lante .. gara2 kmk org .. hadeh .. berslh lalu rsa .. #sorry .. nang knk mrh lah kmk org .. mcm suma jak salah kmk org .. nang rsa .. enth la .. bengap gilak ka sampe suma slh kmk org ? ingt ny betul gilak ? biasanya, tok slh keduak2 pihak .. xda ny cgek pihak jak oi ! no one's perfect .. termsok you, mister .. sorry la .. kmk org pun ada perasaan tauk ? ingt you jak ka ? sampe mok bwk kmk org pergi jmp principal .. what the ? hadehhh .. nang lah .. lps keluar jak dri kls ya, suddenly nangis .. I mean .. I CRIED .. AGAIN ? hahaha .. ya .. so #congek ! nang bna lah kta kt ya, tweetheart oo .. kmk nang congek .. :P it's true ! I mean .. #truestory .. hehe .. xtauk lah .. Madam pun pdh .. jgn sampe bnda tok effect kmk org pun debate .. sbb esk ya, pertandingan kmk org .. tpi seriously .. bnda tok nang effect kmk org .. apa lah penting gilak PJ ya ? hadehh .. ya lah tek .. msuk SPM next year bah .. hahaha .. mari kita ketawa ramai2 ! hehe ..


So .. I cried again in the library .. nasib hanya debaters dlm ya .. ;) so, samuel try to calm me down .. sbar2 .. hadeh .. ne dpt sbr ngan ckgu gya .. ktk org mok lah ? I dun want ! heheh .. bah2 .. rsanya dah ckup pjg dh tok .. lemah dah tgn tok .. gik pun, mok prepare for tmrw .. :) wlpn harapan kmk org mok menang ya nipis and samar2 jak .. we'll be fine .. sbb kmk org dah dpt pg quarter final .. :) Peace out !

Page 79 of 366 : I want you, Mr. A :')

Salam .. It's been ages since my last entry right ? Hmm .. Well, I don't know why .. Maybe I have lost interest in blogging .. I don't really know .. I have my Galaxy where I can simply write anything happens to me and my life .. But I will still love you, my dear beloved bloggy .. Okay .. Move on to my first point .. *As if I am debating .. hehe .. Okay2 ..


What I want to tell you is .. I want the old Mr. A back .. Hmm .. He's changed since we're fighting on something .. Can't barely remember .. But .. We did .. Hmm .. I know it was my fault that I don't understand him that he was a college student .. He was becoming a doctor .. InsyaAllah .. Hmm .. Well .. He did .. I don't know why .. He also don't know .. How's that ? I also don't know .. Well .. Hadehh .. I DON'T KNOW .. I just want the old him back .. I miss the old him .. Very very very VERY much .. ;/


Okay .. My life ? Hmm .. I was busy with debate .. I know .. I was busy since the farewell party .. then, I have the Islamic Camp .. then, this .. Hmm .. It was fun actually ! A busy life makes me forget about those pains I have to face .. Pains ? Hurts ? Scars ? Hmmm .. It's just an USUAL thingy for me .. Nothing special about it .. You know what ? Miah got hospitalized .. Quite shocked because things just happens too fast .. I mean TOO FAST .. I dun know why I really wanted to text him that Monday .. Tup tup .. He got to operate that day .. That time .. His last text was .. 'I'm sorry to tell you that its serious and I have to be admitted for a few days or weeks.' And I was like .. 'Is this true ? He gotta be kidding me !' But he's not .. Hmm .. After his operation, he text me again .. Just after his operation finish .. 'I'm in the hospital now. Ward 3.' Hmm .. Yesterday, I visited him at the hospital. Can't stand seeing him like that. But I know he was a strong boy. He keep saying that it's hurts but he still can deal with it .. He is a strong boy .. May God be with him always .. But he still can give me a smile and make 'cute' face when I was about to leave .. Hahaha ..Well, I do miss his smile .. When I visited him, my mouth is totally .. I mean .. TOTALLY .. have a zip on it .. hehehe .. I don't speak any word with him .. Only with his mum, Kie and Kak Nor .. But he still can SMILE .. Although he's in pains .. Whatever it is .. Get well soon, dear ! ;] Peace out !


I think I should go to bed now .. Heheh .. Na nytes ! Peace out ! ;] *heart you, Mr. A ! 

Page 66 of 366 : The Meeting

Salam ... 
Don't know why I feels like writing a new entry tonight .. Maybe Mr. A didn't text me as he promised me just now ? Hmm .. Feels bad about it but .. Smile while crying is better, right ? :') Okay now .. Let's talk about the meeting .. Between me and Mr. F ..


It's was 2 o'clock in the afternoon and I was standing alone without my friends. They got back earlier than me. And I saw a guy, wearing a pair of spectacles, standing alone at the other end of the bus station. I decided to talk to him about us. So, I walked to the end of the bus station. My heart beats fast as I was about to talk to him. He was shocked ! I'm sorry. :) Didn't mean to do so. So, I asked him if he had received my text message last night. He said yes and he read it. Quite shy talking with him actually that we had NEVER talk to each other. We had this short conversation about personal things. Few minutes past by and we end our conservation with "We're cool, kan ? :)". And that's is the very first and last time I talk with him. :) Thank you, dear.


Our short conversation is really meaningful for me and him. That is the last time we captured our moments together. I'll cherish all the moments we spend together since the very first day we met. Besides, you're my adik what ! Ahahaha. Nyte now ! ;D Heart you ..

Page 62 of 366 #2 : They're special :)

Salam .. 
This is my second entry today .. Don't know why out of sudden I wrote twice .. Kinda feel like sharing things with you .. :) Here it goes .. My special person award goes to .... ;D


Miss Amy @ Miss Bell - My besties. I mean one of them. She's out-going, happy go lucky, emotional. Well, we almost have the same character. She knows everything ! Yup, every single things happen in my life. Gracia, Ami. Je t'aime. <3


Miss Serin and Miss Shaeiy - These two girls just can't get over it ! They're such a happy go lucky person, full of laugh when you're with them, place where you can share things. They're just made our friendship perfect !


Miss Michelle, Miss Sofia and Miss Gloria - Okay ! These people are crazy when we're gathering. They must have jokes to tell. They're naughty but so do all of us ! Ahaha. We shared our laughter together. To make our friendship special, full of colours. UNIQUE !


Mr. A - A is for Awesome k. Get the idea ? Hehe. Well. We're just know each other a few days ago. We're DEBATING something got to do with love thing. Ahahaha. Kinda funny though but that's the real thing happened. We have our own nick name, given by each other. Get me ? Haha. Okay2, he called me Miss Tough Cookie @ Miss Cookie. So, he's my Mr. Awesome ! ;D #cool !


Mr. E - My cute Mr. E. No one know who's exactly Mr. E is. Only certain people that can be TRUSTED know who is Mr. E. Nothing special about him because I don't really know him well. Same school but not the same class. But he's CUTE and have a very sweet smile. I'm DEADLY in love with his smile. I mean DEADLY ! ;D


Mr. F - He's just like my boss, I'm his assistant and Mr. K is the worker. COMPLETELY PERFECT ! Our friendship start well and ends well too ! We're still friends. Don't worry. ;D Love his smile so much. Thanks for making my day bright and my night full of stars. Thanks for the moments we've been through. It's fun and no more TEARS .. ;D


Mr. K - If I have problems, I will refer to this little guy. He's great at advising people especially with the one he loves. *including me k ! Hehe. This guy don't easily get bored when I talk about 'someone' with him. Thanks ! 


Mr. M - Don't want to talk much. He's unique, kind and full of advice. Love to work with him on events. Just adore his smile though. Love to share stories with him. Love his advices. Thank you. 


Mr. T - This guy is killing me slowly with his laugh, jokes and nonsense ideas ! Haha. Used to be close to him before. Now and always ! Ahaha. A great adviser but with nonsense ideas. Get me ? He's my tweetheart. Know who ? HIM la ! Hadeh. Haha. 


Mr. Z - Okay, I'm still love you. Weird but true ? Don't know if it's true or not. My own heart but I don't know. Life's complicated. You're such a hard core but it's okay. Just hope things getting better between us. Not vice versa. 


Now, you knew who's my special person right ? If you're on the list, CONGRATS ! If not, you're still my friends,k ! You can still share things with me either about studies or love and one more thing. I almost FORGET ! For me, my CLASSMATES are my FRIENDS. Thank you !

Page 62 of 366 : The Talk

Salam ..
Hey there .. How's life ? For me, kinda tough .. But I am a tough cookie ! Hmm .. :') Just had a short conversation with him just now .. It's started well but end ? Not that good .. Our conversation is secret though .. Only me, him and Amy knew about it .. Enough .. We're so close but so far away .. Only one thing I can tell you .. He's such a HARD CORE .. Sad but true .. #TrueStory .. Open your heart, dear .. Wash away those nonsense from your mind .. Think of us .. Then, tell me .. Your mind was distracted with those crap and nonsense .. Don't get involve in those things .. I know who I am to you but, please .. Just this time .. I'm sure this is the LAST time I'm begging you .. 
*Wish I could talk with him like this .. O Allah, please make our relationship better .. Maybe we're not friends but I don't want any enemies especially him ..  


Mr. A - You're randomly awesome ! Kinda missing you now .. Hahaha .. ;D

Page 61 of 366 : My Wishlist ;D

Salam .. 
Missing you bloggy ! How you're doing ? As for me, things didn't go according to plan .. I promised you many things right ? I'll try to write more entry to you k ? :) Now2, let's talk about my wishlist .. Things I wanted or my dream right ? cool ! hahah .. Okay2 .. Let's start! 

1. I want my OWN DSLR .. It could be Canon or Nikon but I prefer Canon .. I'm used to Canon :) Officially, I would like to say .. That .. I AM A CANON LOVER ! ;D
2. If I have the camera, I would like to go on vacation AROUND THE GLOBE .. Discovering new unique things .. Culture, foods, and cloths ! New places, new experience :) 
3. If I can't go all around the globe, I would prefer going to my favorite places ONLY .. I think you know one of it right ? Paris, France .. I loved the Eiffel Tower .. :) Next, Mecca .. :) I adore both ! :)
4. Hmm .. You know how much I love Photography right ? I would live for photography only *if I can la .. Haha .. I want to learn and take beautiful pictures .. Capturing the best shot .. With life most greatest moment :)
5. GOSH ! I want BIG TEDDY BEAR ! If can, I want it to be as big as a human being, white or chocolate, fluffy and make sure it is BIG enough for me to hug it ! hahaha .. Told ya ! ;D
6. Hmm .. It would be nice if every month, I get a white fresh rose from someone that I don't even know .. Hehehe .. It's sweet what ! I love WHITE ROSES ... Very muchhh !
7. Plus, it would be VERY SWEET if I received chocolate every month/week .. Well, me and Amy did an agreement .. :) Every month, on the day of our birthday, we'll give each other a chocolate .. Cool right ?! hahah .. Well, it would be nice if I get from him too .. #memories ..

Okay .. Now2 .. :) Enough2 .. Got many things to write .. Well, you know me .. But I still own you .. About the camp .. Today .. and Tomorrow .. hahah .. ;D Adie ! Je t'aime .. Tu me manques ..