Page 271 of 365 : Closer :)

Assalamualaikum.. It's been quite some times since my last entry.. My readers ran already.. I think so.. My last entry was on the 100th something day, isn't it ? So, that means.. It's been almost 200 days after the last entry.. Wahhh.. Hehe.. Really busy with many things.. If I want to list all of those things.. I don't know how long will it take for me to finish all of it.. Hehe..

Actually, there's a reason behind this entry.. Hmm.. How should I start ? Okay.. Here we go.. I have a dream.. A secret one.. If the usual one, I got many lah.. Hehe.. But since that it is a secret, I won't tell here.. Too public.. Hehe.. But, tht dream will change my life forever.. If I get the chance to achieve it.. Hmm..

The thing that I want to talk about have something to do with that dream.. Okay, there's a guy.. I admired him for his attitude and his appearance.. But, it seems impossible.. Well.. There's a reason.. :) So, I decided to forget that feeling because I still love and care for our friendship.. Day by day.. We're getting closer.. And that feeling suddenly grows again for him.. But I hate the fact that I like him.. Why ? Because I just don't want to ruin our friendship.. Friends do last longer than lovers.. That's all.. But it's getting harder for me to deny it.. So, I decided.. I am determined to achieve my dream in order to forget that 'feeling' towards him.. But that dream requires me to leave the one I loves.. Friends, family.. And him..

Yeahh.. It's the only way to forget that feeling but not the friendship.. :) Besides, it's better that way than I keep hoping for the stars to fall.. Cause I know the stars won't fall down to Earth no matter what happen, kan ? I think I had mood swing because of all this.. Ya Allah, please give me the strength to face all this.. I know You're always there for me.. Amin.. Kumawo, Allah..

Okay, I think I have to stop.. Why ? Because I don't feel quite well.. Tired.. Emotionally.. Mentally.. Physically.. Just really tired.. Besides, I'm having a slight fever now.. :) So, that's all.. Gonna write again.. Soon ! InsyaAllah ;)

Page 105 of 365 : The Clueless Girl

Assalamualaikum ..

Yes, it is a weird title .. Haha .. Sorry, I've got no idea already .. So, it's been such a long time the last time I posted an entry .. It was like months ago .. Haha .. I don't even realize that .. Time really do run .. Now, only about 6 to 5 months left for SPM .. This morning, Madam Lau asks me what is my target for the next exam .. For Chemistry paper of course .. This time, I will aim a bit higher than my standard .. She said if I wanted to achieve that score, I must start my revision starting from today .. Yeah, I aim an A for my Chemistry .. Not A- .. Alang-alang .. Haha .. Maybe an A or if I can do well, A+ of course .. SPM is only once in our life right ? Okay, enough about SPM first ..

Hmm .. How about friendship ? Alhamdulillah .. For now, we're even closer than before .. Maybe we're going through some conflicts but yeah .. That conflicts makes us even closer actually ... Haha .. And this year is really a tough year for us .. Have to give out our best for SPM and at the same time, the juniors are carik pasal with us .. Like seriously .. Usually, senior carik pasal with junior .. But it is really DAEBAK lah because junior *even Form 1* carik pasal* dengan senior .. DAEBAK !! Aigoo~ It has been a really tough year eh .. Chill saja lah .. And thank Allah, I really grateful to have friend like them .. Not only three of them .. But also, Aina, Lin & Wanny .. And last but not least, my classmates .. There are jjang ! Even though the juniors suka carik pasal, still .. Neul saranghae, my adek2 .. Only a few left .. Kan, Ameer ? And uncle ! My cute lil' uncle .. hahaha ..

Love ? Hey .. A guy confessed to me before .. Sorry, I think .. No, I know I can't .. For now .. It's not the right time yet .. Truthfully, I don't admire anyone for the time being .. That guy before, is now like my big brother although he was born after 5 months and 4 days after the day I was born .. Haha .. Hey, bro ! I really hope you can do well .. Not only in your studies but in your life .. All the best okay ? Haha .. Yeahhh .. Maybe we're not close like before .. It's okay .. I really understand about your busy life and stuff .. This is your dongsaeng bah .. Haha ..  Hwaiting, oppa ! hahah .. Pelik bunyi oo ? 

Okay, so I think this is the end .. If I got some free time, insyaAllah I will post more .. And btw, I really miss my brother at Slovenia .. Seriously .. It's been quite some time after we contact each other .. Oh myyy .. Miss you much ! Saranghae~ Hope you're doing well there .. Haha .. :3 Love you ! Take care yaaa .. 

Page 8 of 365 : Cinta ? Hmm .. :)

Assalamualaikum ..

Yerr .. Busy dengan macam2 bnda jak awl2 tahun tok .. Yerrr .. Apa kah ? Alhamdulillah, mcm2 bnda dah jdi semakin baik .. Contohnya ? Hubungan saya dengan 'awak' lah .. Kami tetap kawan .. Sampailah Allah tarik nyawa kmk duak .. Hehe .. Kawan jak k .. Iboh nak over2 .. Haha .. Oh ya, btw .. Hari tok nak .. Birthday Sanah .. Dulok salu nunggah nya sis .. So, hppy 17th sis ! May Allah bless you always .. And pda msa yg sama, my dear Stinky pun birthday today ! Happy 15th, dear ! Wow, PMR sudah dia .. xD Jaga my girl baik2 ya ? hahah .. To both, I love you ! Hahaha ..

Oppsss .. Actually, ada benda yang mok dishare .. Duhai kawan, saya mohon share informasi tadi ya ? Hehe .. Well, ktk ckp rame org x pk bnda2 mcm tok .. Kmk pun x terfikir .. And adalah lebih baik kalau kita dapat share benda bagus mcm tok nak ? Wlpn x masok SPM nak ? Cuma sekadar perkongsian semata-mata .. Tiada maksud lain .. Hehe .. So, here it goes ..

Actually, there are 4 stages dalam bercinta tok .. Roughly lah .. The first stage is CINTA TADIKA .. Cinta berdasarkan rupa paras .. Mok tauk x apahal ny digelar cinta tadika ? Sbb, masa kecik-kecik nak .. Kita lebih suka benda yang attractive .. Bena x ? Kita xmok bnda xkacak .. So basically, cinta tok lebih kpda rupa paras semata-mata .. Personally, Eif x pernah lalui zaman mcm tok .. Cinta tadika tok .. Pelik oo ? xD

So, proceed .. The second stage is, CINTA PASAR .. Pelik kan bunyi nya ? Tapi sesuai dengan maksudnya .. Mun kita ke pasar kan, kita selalu pilih barang yg the best drpd semua pilihan sesuatu produk ya .. Same goes to maksud cinta tok .. Kita tertarik dengan seseorang disbbkan character nya .. Or, apa yg attractive kat nya .. Sbg cnth, nya alim lah .. Pande lah .. Berkarisma lah .. Gya lah .. So, that's why nya digelar cinta pasar .. And Eif pernah alami tok .. Sapa x mok yg terbaik kan ? xP

Next one, the third stage .. It is CINTA MONYET .. Hampir majoriti manusia di ats muka bumi tok pernah alami .. X semua k ? MAJORITI .. Hehe .. Take note~ Cinta monyet kebiasaannya bermula bila kita di Tahun 5 @ 6 gya sampe lah ke sklh menengah .. Cinta tok biasanya lead to zina .. X percaya ? Try pergi Parkson ka, cne2 tmpt org suka lepak @ dating .. Dduk kat suatu sudut and perhatikan couple2 yang lalu lalang .. Bukankah zina ya ? X dulik lah apa2 zina pun .. Lagik namanya zina nak .. Haha .. Jarang bena cinta monyet tok bertahan sampe ke alam perkahwinan .. Eif x pdh xda yang bertahan k ? Eif pdh JARANG .. Take note~

Last stage is bila kita berumur dlm lingkungan 23 to 25 .. Stage tok digelar CINTA MATANG .. Kenapa cinta matang ? Berdasarkan psikologi, dlm lingkungan umur tok lah kita dapat cinta yang matang that is bila diri kita mula berfikiran secara matang .. Cinta matang adlh juga .. Cinta yang sampai ke alam perkahwinan .. InsyaAllah ... Eif x mdh lah yang umo selain dri 23, 24 & 25 ya cinta x matang k ? Just mengikut kajian lah katakan .. Hehe .. Just roughly .. :)

Okay, selesai sudah .. Alhamdulillah .. Ini cuma sekadar sharing untuk semua awesome readers sya .. ^.^ Juga peringatan kepada diri yang serba kekurangan ini .. Saya akhiri dengan .. HWAITING~