Page 271 of 365 : Closer :)

Assalamualaikum.. It's been quite some times since my last entry.. My readers ran already.. I think so.. My last entry was on the 100th something day, isn't it ? So, that means.. It's been almost 200 days after the last entry.. Wahhh.. Hehe.. Really busy with many things.. If I want to list all of those things.. I don't know how long will it take for me to finish all of it.. Hehe..

Actually, there's a reason behind this entry.. Hmm.. How should I start ? Okay.. Here we go.. I have a dream.. A secret one.. If the usual one, I got many lah.. Hehe.. But since that it is a secret, I won't tell here.. Too public.. Hehe.. But, tht dream will change my life forever.. If I get the chance to achieve it.. Hmm..

The thing that I want to talk about have something to do with that dream.. Okay, there's a guy.. I admired him for his attitude and his appearance.. But, it seems impossible.. Well.. There's a reason.. :) So, I decided to forget that feeling because I still love and care for our friendship.. Day by day.. We're getting closer.. And that feeling suddenly grows again for him.. But I hate the fact that I like him.. Why ? Because I just don't want to ruin our friendship.. Friends do last longer than lovers.. That's all.. But it's getting harder for me to deny it.. So, I decided.. I am determined to achieve my dream in order to forget that 'feeling' towards him.. But that dream requires me to leave the one I loves.. Friends, family.. And him..

Yeahh.. It's the only way to forget that feeling but not the friendship.. :) Besides, it's better that way than I keep hoping for the stars to fall.. Cause I know the stars won't fall down to Earth no matter what happen, kan ? I think I had mood swing because of all this.. Ya Allah, please give me the strength to face all this.. I know You're always there for me.. Amin.. Kumawo, Allah..

Okay, I think I have to stop.. Why ? Because I don't feel quite well.. Tired.. Emotionally.. Mentally.. Physically.. Just really tired.. Besides, I'm having a slight fever now.. :) So, that's all.. Gonna write again.. Soon ! InsyaAllah ;)