Page 353 of 366 : My dreams ..

Assalamualaikum ..

My dreams ? Hmm .. Okay, sorry readers .. This topic might be a bit boring .. But I really got nothing to talk about right now .. My fingers just started to get active on the keyboard .. Deal with it ! Hahaha .. Ready to blast off ?

My first dream is .. It might sound a bit impossible but baby, nothing is impossible if you have faith and you really work on it .. I want to go to Paris .. Yup, the city of love, fashion and food .. Basically, I am searching for love and I really love food .. Cooking and pastries .. I want to go to the largest museum in the world, Le Musée du Louvre .. In English is, The Louvre Museum .. In this enormous museum, you can see the famous art work by Leonard Da Vinci that is the portraiture of Mona Lisa .. There are many more art works that will amaze you if you are really into art .. Besides the museum, you are well informed by the amazing skyscraper, the Eiffel Tower .. Your journey would not be complete if you don't visit this symbol of Paris .. There are much much more attractions of Paris .. Just google it .. Don't be so lazy la .. Haha .. :D

Proceed to my second dream .. Hmm .. I am so jealous with the title 'Dr.' .. Want to know something ? Actually, I wanted to be a chef when I step into Form 4 .. I do love cooking but it seems like it just don't go well .. It fades .. Slowly and slowly .. But I still have some faith in me that I can be a chef .. SOMEDAY .. There was an education affair that was held annually in our school .. This year, I have started to take my career thing seriously .. I saw an interesting course .. Culinology .. Sounds weird huh ? That is the very first time I heard about it .. It is something unexplained .. Maybe you can google it .. :) It is a fun course as it sounds .. But then, I am interested in medic .. Maybe a doctor or a pediatrician .. I love Biology .. But not really into Physics .. Chemistry is okay for me .. Additional Mathematics ? I have killed it, baby ! *Well, not really.. Haha..' Hmm, I have not decide anything yet .. I will refer to someone who know how to manage this better than I do .. Allah and my awesome friends ;)

My third dream .. I wanted a life .. A beautiful life .. A perfect life .. With people that complete me .. My family and friends .. The one that always support me .. Without them, I was like using life support machine .. :'D Many things I have been through for this 16 years of living, breathing .. Hard times, broken heart, bleeding scars, rainy days & nights .. Happy moments, fake smiles, tears of happiness, sunshines & stars .. All of that .. I just wanted a life .. Thank you for giving me some of it .. :')

My fourth dream is, I just wanted to feel the sacredness of a true love .. A love from Allah .. I trust in one thing .. Love after marriage .. I might be crazy but I might let my mum to choose a husband for me .. Crazy right ? WAIT ! I am TOO YOUNG to get married .. So, why should I think about this ? Daaa~ I am relying of Allah's plan .. And I am following the flow .. No need to think about it for now okay .. Hehe .. Want to know a secret .. I am so tired of being played by guys .. Even though some the guys just my friends .. It can effect me, you know .. It did happened ! Last exam, I cannot focus on my last two subject for the exam .. So, I did not do well in my 6 papers .. DUSH ! Cruel is it ? But hey, I cannot blame him actually .. My fault that I cannot even control my own feelings .. Looks like I need to work on these feelings .. Maybe there are some screws that loosen out .. Without me realizing it .. Haha .. Well, well .. For girls, we did actually think about marriage at such young age .. Only the one that can manage her feelings well, they keep everything under her control .. Hello, girls ! You know what I mean right ? Oppss .. Well, here's the thing .. I am admiring a guy .. But can I just give up ? I am losing hope .. I don't know but my girl really thinks that he was the one for me .. We are still friends and no one can change that .. But this feeling, don't change .. No matter how hard I try but I cannot .. STOP ! I don't want to be so emotional tonight .. Hehe .. Here's a song for you .. :)

Can't Help Falling In Love You - Elvis Presley

*click on the song title to let the tune flows*

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I can't help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you
For I can't help falling in love with you

For I can't help falling in love with you, dear .. Chewah .. I have been so jiwang tonight .. Haha .. Well hello ! This is life ! Don't like it ? Don't live with life .. Haha .. You cannot understand ? Please don't .. Haha .. Au revoir !

Page 352 of 366 : I'm stronger .. :')

Assalamualaikum ..

Aww .. How I missed my dad, my mum and my adorably sweet little angel, Nani .. Two more days, girl .. Just be strong .. And we're off with a very tight schedule .. We will be busy weeks for us .. Hmm .. Actually, I don't want to talk about that .. Well, not really .. Got something to share for all the girls out there .. :') Listen ..

Did you ever got stuck in the middle of something ? That makes you have to make decision .. A very tough decision, especially that will effect you and your life .. Did you ever gone through breakups .. Or are you still single ? Scared of being hurt again .. Tired of love and stuff .. Did you ever feel depressed of family problems ? Feel stress of your friends that don't understand you in at least one situation ?

Well, girls .. Hear me out, darling .. You are much much stronger than you thought .. All those things I mention just now are just the little rocks that block your way .. Your life's journey .. Always think it from the positive side .. Then, you'll thank Allah for what you've been through .. You might think you've lost almost everything when you lost someone .. Either it's your family, your friends or your special someone .. But dear, don't lose faith in yourself .. You still have someone who cares about you, dear .. Believe in yourself, you can do this .. You can overcome this .. 

Got cheated by your friend or boyfriend ? Your friend stabbed you ? Well, I'll not encourage you to cry but .. Crying can make you feels better .. It was like, an enormous rock been lifted from your back .. So, cry all you can but promise me just for this once .. Then, stand up .. Prove to guys that you can live without them .. As for your friends, maybe it's time for you to step backward and give some space to them .. If they are your friends, they will find a solution to overcome your problem .. Not running away and just leaving you .. All by yourself to think about how to settle the problem .. Right ? A true friend will always be there for you .. They will be loyal to you ..

Be a strong girl .. If you do like I've told you, you'll be happier than you thought .. Seriously, you should NOT be crying just because of these things .. Like all time .. Once and that's it .. Hey, girls .. I've got something for you .. Close you eyes ... Hehe .. Kidding .. :D

So, make sure you spread your smiles k, dear ? Either it's fake or not .. If Allah's will .. You will have a great life .. An awesome life that no one could imagine .. ;3 And here's a song for my awesome girls .. :) 

Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie

*click on the song title to hear it out*
The smell of your skin lingers on me nowYou're probably on your flight back to your home townI need some shelter of my own protection, babyTo be with myself and centerClarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you knowThat this has nothing to do with youIt's personal, myself and IWe've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanketBut I've got to get a move on with my lifeIt's time to be a big girl nowAnd big girls don't cryDon't cry, don't cry, don't cry

The path that I'm walkin', I must go aloneI must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grownFairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you knowThat this has nothing to with youIt's personal, myself and IWe've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanketBut I've got to get a move on with my lifeIt's time to be a big girl nowAnd big girls don't cry

Like the little school mate in the school yardWe'll play jacks and Uno cardsI'll be your best friend and you'll be myValentine

Yes, you can hold my hand if you want to'Cause I want to hold yours tooWe'll be playmates and loversAnd share our secret worlds

But it's time for me to go homeIt's getting late, dark outsideI need to be with myself, and centerClarity, peace, serenity

I hope you know, I hope you knowThat this has nothing to do with youIt's personal, myself and IWe've got some straightenin' out to do

And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanketBut I've got to get a move on with my lifeIt's time to be a big girl nowAnd big girls don't cryDon't cry, don't cry, don't cry
Okay, girls .. That's all for now .. If you girls got some problems to talk about .. Or you need someone to talk to, I am always here for you .. Either you are my classmate, my seniors, my juniors or strangers .. :)

Page 350 of 366 : I've recovered ..

Assalamulaikum ..

How was today ? Hmm .. It is kinda weird when I wrote this entry during day and not night .. But who cares ? Haha .. My life will be extremely boring starting from today and ended next Tuesday .. Huhh .. Let's hang out ? I want to .. But alone .. Please ? I just need to feel the joy of being the only me for this once ..  Hang out with me, my shadow, my soul and my heart .. Problem ? Haha .. Feels like I wanted to scream inside the Kbox's room .. Daa~ Who cares ? :D

Okay, I ain't going to talk about anything specific actually .. Just wanted to let the fingers Tango on the keyboard .. Happily, of course .. Sometimes, being alone is much better than you thought it would be .. No hard feelings and stuff .. I am not letting him go officially .. Just that, I think I need to focus on my SPM more than anything .. I do not have that confidence in me but with the help of Allah, everything will be going according to plan .. I just wanted to make my dreams come true .. He is one of my dreams, but honey .. Study first, love later .. Agree ? Good .. 

Although I might lose him, I still have my family .. My friends .. My girls .. It is been a very very tough year for a 16 years old's girl .. But many things have been learnt from all those mistakes .. I will be better next year .. If Allah's will .. I am supposed to think about having the sweetness and bitterness of the word 'life' .. To think how to overcome situations .. Tasting the word 'enjoy' of the life of a teenager .. Smiling, laughing, crying to awesomeness .. 

Well, the lonely will always keep me accompany .. Always .. No worries .. Here's a song that might helps you out .. To understand me better .. My situation .. :) 

The Lonely - Christina Perri

*click on the song title to hear it out*

2am; where do I begin,
Crying off my face again.
The silent sound of loneliness
Wants to follow me to bed.

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.

Dancing slowly in an empty room,
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby.
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.

Too afraid to go inside
For the pain of one more loveless night.
But the loneliness will stay with me
And hold me til I fall asleep.

I'm a ghost of a girl that I want to be most.
I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well.

Dancing slowly in an empty room,
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby.
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.

Broken pieces of
A barely breathing story
Where there once was love
Now there's only me and the lonely.

Dancing slowly in an empty room
Can the lonely take the place of you?
I sing myself a quiet lullaby
Let you go and let the lonely in
To take my heart again.

I think that's all for now .. I will keep updating these few days .. Maybe I can improve my writing .. Just maybe .. Hehe .. Wasalam~

Page 349 of 366 : Let It be .. :')

Assalamualaikum ..

It is the 8th day .. And I really missed him .. He's online now but .. I'm taking the first move .. And the responds ? Hmm .. What's wrong with him ??? Am I doing something that ... Hmm .. Forget it .. I AM GIVING UP WITH THIS RELATIONSHIP ..

Bloggy, I just don't know what happen okay .. I guess I just gonna let it be .. The way we are now .. I had enough .. Kesabaran saya ada limitnya .. Kalau berdiam diri boleh selesaikan masalah .. Dipersilakan .. Terima kasih untuk semuanya .. Awak buat lagi .. Awak buat lagi .. Dan awak buat lagi ..

Kenapa maseh xfaham ? Hmm .. Xpa, saya x pksa awk .. Sya dah bgik awk second chance kan ? Biarlah hbngn kta hanya sebagai saudara sesama Islam .. Thanks for everything .. I won't text you from this second .. I won't ... 

I was about to cry but does it worth anything ??? A tough .. Hmm .. Why am I so emotional ? Cause .. No need to know .. You won't need it .. Just have a nice and happy life .. You still can live without a 'dumb' friend like me, right ? I don't bring any benefits to you either mentally or emotionally .. But remember, you've changed me .. Thank you :')

Okay, that's all .. Here's a song for you .. I am not ending this relationship .. We just need to pause it for a moment .. Until .. I don't know when .. Assalamualaikum, awak .. Au revoir, mon sier ! 

Page 341 of 366 : What A Day !

Assalamualaikum ..

What a day ! Hmm .. Byk na bnda mengejut hari tok .. Maseh lagi sakit .. Hmm .. Xtauk bila shat .. Skit tekak tok yang sakit .. Xpa, setiap kali kita sakit, tujuannya ialah untuk menghapuskan dosa2 kita .. :) So, Eif rsa bersyukur dberik sakit wlpn nang xnyaman lalu rsa nak ? Tapi, what can we do ? Makan ubat lah .. Hehe .. Tapi skit gne2 pun, solat jgn lupak .. Doa supaya cpat shat .. InsyaAllah ..


Btw .. Alhamdulillah .. Allah bgik kesempatan untuk Eif jumpa ngan kwan  Eif yang pling Eif rindu .. :') Serin, jgn jeles k ? xD hehe .. Rndu msa kta crta psal dulu .. I just missed the moment, girl .. Then, the most shocking news .. Hmm .. Today is the last day .. Mmg rsa nak nangis jak bila nya decide gya .. But family first kan ? I learnt to respect other's .. And this way ... I respect your decision, dear .. Ya, I'll be missing you but insyaAllah .. Everything will be just fine .. 

So, now .. My phone will be .. Just in silent mode .. Orang hnya akan call bila perlu .. Text bila tweet masuk or bila ada org prlukan apa2 .. Forget him, SPM is much much more important .. Focus Eif ! Hmm .. I always lost my focus with some very not important things .. Huhh ..

Wake up ! It's 17 .. It's 2013 .. It's SPM .. What do you say ? Focus with what I want .. Forget what had happen .. Throw away the bad memories into the valley of sadness .. Muahahaha.. But guys .. I still remember ... The moment I met those people that hurts my heart .. The moment we enjoying and spending our time happily .. The moment of truth ... I remember every single moment we had been through .. A BIG THANKS to you guys .. Faqqar and friends, Kak Qinah, Kak Wawa .. 4 Tekun, Well, Carol, Ahmad, Akmal, Picholas and every single person in the lunatic class .. Others, Haziq Farhan, Aizuddin *my old friend from primary*, Afiq Faiz, Yazid, Java, Kath, Aizul, Adib .. My juniors .. No matter in what school .. My seniors .. My lovely adek angkat, Mirul ;3 

Not to forget, the angels of my heart .. Nur Amaelya & Serin .. Thanks for the great moments .. It's precious and fragile .. I just love you both .. Thanks for always being there for me .. For always, make me smile .. No matter if it is fake or not .. Thanks for the support .. We can do it although the distance separate us apart .. But our heart and soul to the friendship will stay .. InsyaAllah .. :)

And lastly, thanks to 'awak' that shines my day with the bright light and the sparkling stars at night .. Thanks for being the tiny, small light source when darkness surround me .. Thanks for being the 'umbrella' when it's 'rains' .. Thanks for being the 'shades' when it's 'hot' .. A much bigger thank you to you .. :) Bon jour, mon sier .. :')

That's all for tonight .. :) Wasalam~

Page 337 of 366 : Getting older ? ;D

Assalamualaikum..

Woot ! Woot ! Getting older, huh ? I'll be turning 17 next year .. Well, hello 17 .. Hello SPM .. Hahaha .. SPM ? Wuuu .. A tough challenge for me .. :3 But, I'll do my very best .. InsyaAllah .. Dengan izinNya ..

Oh ya, this year have been my great year ! Haha .. New challenges, new friends .. Many new things .. Everything's just new to me .. One of the memories I remembered till today .. Debate ! Aww .. April was awesome with debating .. Just getting in love in every battle .. I don't really like debate in the first place but alhamdulillah, everything just doing fine .. We managed to break the school record in debate .. Until semi final .. Almost to the final ! Sikit lagi .. Hahah .. We will do better next year .. :P Ho yeah ! Ho yeah !

And on the July 16th until July 19th,  a group of Lopengians are sent to be Collegians .. The first day was .. Hmm .. I already put it into words bah .. In my previous entry .. Just try to look for it .. Entitled : Journey To Kolej .. Just read from there .. Well, I'm just thankful having peers from Kolej .. Especially students from 4 Tekun and the teachers too .. You're guys are just awesome ! Thanks, guys and girls :) The PRS and the prefects too .. Thanks ya ! Not to forget friends from the same batch .. Old friends from SKAMIS :) And even those who I know after I go to Kolej the other day .. Guys, just a word .. THANKS :')

And I am really, really, really thankful for getting to know him .. Everything was started on July 17th .. The very first time he talks to me, just me and him .. And it's been about 5 months plus, plus since that day .. Ya, we had some fights and stuff but we're still okay .. It's normal in a relationship .. We still managed to get things done .. I am just grateful having him right beside me when I need someone to talk too .. Having him to care about me when I'm sick .. Having him to make me laugh when I cry .. When people don't understand me like he does .. Oppss .. Getting to much emotional here .. By the way, we're still friends okay .. JUST friends .. :) Not more than that .. Problem ? xD

Through out this years, many sweet and bad memories I've gone through .. Many smiles had been spread .. Meaningful smiles, sweet smiles, lovable smiles, evil smiles, fake smiles .. Haha ... And all those rainy days .. Tears .. The bleeding heart .. The scars .. Whatever it is, thanks for everything .. :')

Page 308 of 366 : Confuse ?

Assalamualaikum .. :)

Belum hbis2 gik sakit tok .. Haiyaa .. Xpa, dugaan .. Haha .. Currently tengah lagu Doaku Untukmu Sayang by Wali Band .. Ambik mood kata orang .. Dalam hati lain .. Luaran lain .. Bak kata org putih, don't judge a book by it's cover .. :D Mok dengar crta x ? Bah ju2 ! Hehe ..

Yes ! Hati banyak suka bila internet sudah ada balik .. Hehe .. Balit2 jak tek, trs online .. Sambil2 online, tgok movie .. Crta Aku Terima Nikahnya .. Best aie ! Haha .. Sweet sangat .. Sedang Eif scroll news feed tek, ternampak lah cgek status yang agak menarik perhatian mata tek .. WOW ! Status kwn Eif bah .. Hehe .. For sure, mmg laki .. Hehe .. Xperlu dimention nama, ny tauk .. Gago jak ktk org .. :P

"Kenak manusia dijadikan ada perasaan sayang,benci,cinta dan lain-lain ??"

So, Eif decided to post comments on that status .. *Notification (1)* *Open* Eh, ada respond .. Lalu lah berkomen tek dgn ada sorang gik kwn nya yg merangkap kwn Eif juak .. Tpi rsa mcm x puas berkomen jak .. So, luahkan apa yg ptt rah blog terchenta tok .. Hehe .. :D Jadi, apa dtggu gik ? JUM !

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim .. :) Mungkin persoalan tok agak common untuk certain org .. For me, mungkin this person fikir pahal ny perlu rsa sesetgh perasaan ya .. Rsanya lah .. :) Klau perasaan sayang, cinta or suka .. Hmm .. Bygkan .. Klau xda perasaan tok, xmungkin ktk org lahir kat dunia tok kan ? dah ya, kalau xda perasaan tok .. ktk org xmungkin disuka org kan ? semua org akan bermusuh jak .. Yalah, xda perasaan tok bah .. and ktk org dpt membezakan gne rsa bnci @ syg dkt smethng ya .. and dpt membezakan cnta terhdp manusia dan cinta terhadap Allah .. betul x ?

Perasaan benci ? Okay, xsemua org suka semua bnda .. Ada bnda yg mesti dibenci seseorg ya .. Depends lah dgn ktk org .. Tpi hati2 dgn perasaan bncik .. Klak terpantul rah ktk org .. Mok ko ? Haha .. Sebenarnya, agak useless bncik lmk2 .. x best bah .. haha .. mok tauk phl ? Figure it out ;)

Perasaan lain2 ? Contoh .. Sakit hati and semua yg negatif2 ya lah .. Group sekali gus jak .. :D Sng crta .. Ambik sng kan .. Kita alami semua perasaan tok sbb in the end, we'll gain something .. Two things usually .. Pengalaman and a good ending .. Mok contoh ? Okay la .. You and you gf @ bf had a fight over something and then, break .. Nangis punyalah .. Adohh .. banjir ehh .. Yg laki ya, laen cra nya .. yg prpm, nangis2 .. maybe months after ya, salah seorg dri ktk org dpt new couple and dgn kuasa Allah, ktk org kawen .. See ? xpa skit kjap .. :D Apa2 pun, in the end .. You'll gain something either it's good or bad ..

And for the perasaan lain yg positif ... Sbrnya, perasaan negatif n positif tok kan saling berbalas2 .. Bila ktk org dah rsa perasaan yg positif ya, klak2 ktk org rsa yg negatif gik .. Gya lah .. Both perasaan tok akn completekan life ktk org .. Trust me .. Fikir2kan lah .. :D

Alhamdulillah .. Cukup la .. Belum refill otak gik .. Tok jak yg ada .. ;) Well, I was hoping there will be more readers and visitors yg ngagk blog yg x sebrpa tok .. :) Bah2, waalaikummusalam ;D

Page 299 of 366 : Which are you in ?

Assalamualaikum .. :)

Okay .. Ju cerita pasal friendship sikit .. Eif rasa Eif x berlaku adil dengan sesetengah kawan2 Eif .. Guys, saya mintak maaf ye .. Ada seorang hamba Allah yang dengan BERANI nya nasihat Eif .. Walaupun kata2 nya ya menyakitkan .. Ada juak benarnya .. Ada juak yang x nya .. Depends .. :) kalau x disebabkan nya, entah lah .. Apa2 pun, terima kasih .. :') Eyy .. Iboh nak sedeh2 k .. Ju kita klaka2 .. Hehe .. 

Actually, apa yang Eif mok crta is, ciri2 seorang kawan, teman or sahabat .. Generally, mmg semua yang HAMPIR sama maksud .. But actually, it's not .. Kan2 ? Bah2 .. Ju kita crta2 .. Bismillah .. :)

1. Awak seorang yang caring .. Banyak jenis caring tok .. Ada caring yang melampo .. Ada caring yang merimaskan .. Ada caring yang antara caring ngan x .. Ada caring yang average .. Xsalah pun caring .. Tapi ada certain orang kan .. Nya misunderstand bila kita caring ngan nya .. Hmm .. Mcm Eif .. Haha .. Xda lah .. Tapi kdg2, org akan get annoying bila kita terlalu caring and ada juak yang suka .. Nya depends dgn seseorg individu ya .. Kan2 ? :) Btw, I'm in this group .. Hehe .. *Bukan mntk puji okay*

2. Panas baran .. Hmm .. Setakat tok, ada sorang jak kawan Eif mcm tok .. *Awak lah ya* .. Sorry ckp psl awak .. Eif x pernah ada kawan yang panas baran .. So, Eif kurang berpengalaman dalam dealing dengan orang mcm tok .. Ada sesiapa boleh bantu ? :) TQ ..

3. Jenis yang bertolak ansur and sebaliknya .. Okay, kalau yang jenis bertolak ansur ya kan .. Nya akn dengar point of view kita .. Bukan mok argue jak2 .. :) Nya akan dengar and cba cari kata sepakat .. Yang boleh polah both side happy .. While on the other side .. yang ssh mok bertolak ansur .. Mcm debating .. Apa yg nya pdh ya, betul .. 2 + 2 = 5 .. Yalah debater .. Haha .. *Jiwa seorg debater* .. Ssh juak ngan org mcm tok .. Mmg, ada bnda yang ny pdh ya betul .. And ada juak yang kurang betul .. Xdpt nak salahkan org ya sbb berperange mcm tok .. Lumrah doe .. *And here too..

4. Jenis yg byk berkorban .. Hmm .. Kalau yang byk berkorban tok .. Bahaya juak oo .. Nya kan biarkan drik nya yang sakit .. Nya akn pdh as if, kebahagiaan org lain ya kebahagiaan nya juak .. Xsalah .. tapi yang terlampo2 ya ssh .. I have to admit .. Eif mmg dalam group tok .. X tauk lah .. Ssh mok brbh tapi insyaAllah .. Doakan Eif terbuka hati untuk jadi yang lebih baik .. Doa2 anda sangat dihargai .. :) Adalah sebaik2nya, kita jdi someone yang mmg berkorban untuk org lain tapi fikir perasaan kdrk juak .. Jgn jadi kdak Eif, merana di ujung hari .. Haha .. tapi ya lah hakikat .. Hehe ..

5. Annoying and merimaskan .. Okay .. Time for confession .. Eif mmg dalam group tok .. Xda sorang pun yang tahan dengan perange Eif .. Sbb Eif tok entahlah .. Mmg annoying .. Astaghfirullah .. Eif mok lalu buang perange x kacak tok .. Ya Allah, kau bukakanlah pintu hati aku ini untuk berubah ke arah yang lebih baik lagi .. Amin .. Btw, annoying tok banyak sbnrnya .. Annoying dengan perange or character .. Eh ? Bukan sama ka ya ? Haha .. Entah lah .. Anytime jak ktk org boleh rasa annoying .. Betul x ? Hehe .. Kalau ktk org rsa ktk org dalam group tok, cba untuk krgkan rsa annoying org dkt ktk org .. InsyaAllah .. Saya doakan .. Doakan untuk saya juak k ? Sama2 kita doakan .. Untuk kebaikan sendiri juak .. Hehe ..

6. Kawan makan kawan .. Selfish .. Wow oh wow ! Tok lah kawan paling sakit .. Ada yang jenis akan biarkan jak .. Sbb cdak anggap, msh ada peluang untuk cdak brbh .. Tapi mmg ambik masa .. Sekejap atau lamak, tgga la .. Tapi knk biarkan drik ya sakit ? Ish3 .. Ada yang xdapat tahan, putus kawan lah alamat nya .. Selalunya lah .. And ada yang cba untuk merubah org jenis mcm tok .. Dengan berbincang or anything la .. Make sense ?

7. Trust lah k .. Hmm .. Trust tok kan, mcm emas bah .. Kan ? It is something that priceless .. And disebabkan trust lah, Eif dah gaduh ngan org .. Tapi bgs juak gaduh ngan nya .. Nya sedarkan salah Eif .. Lmk2 tok, xprnh pun ada sorang yang polah Eif mcm tok .. Mmg lah sakit bila ny cakap ya .. Tapi Eif ambik positif side .. Eif tauk nya tego untuk kebaikan Eif juak .. Thanks a BUNCH ! :D Eh, laen dah tuju .. Continue .. Ktk org blh cayak kwn ktk org tapi jgn 100% .. Same goes to manusia2 yang laen ya .. Sbb manusia tok mcm2 .. Laen org, laen stael and perange nya bah .. Just be careful .. Not too careful .. Ya jak lah .. Klak kdrk mkn kdrk .. Haha .. Mcm ne lah blh ya jdi possible kan ? Haha ..

8. Talam dua muka .. Tett~ Ada juak org mcm tok kan ? Eif x tauk lah Eif dalam kategori tok ka x .. Mungkin auk .. Mungkin x .. Wallahualam .. Hmm .. Actually, Eif x tauk mok ckap apa udah untuk kategori tok .. *I'm speechless and I should walk away from this category .. Hahah*

9. Periang and happy go lucky .. Eee .. best bah ada kawan mcm tok .. Kalau blh, sehari2 tetak ngan nya jak .. Ada jak bnda mok dibuat lawak .. Kwn tok lah best bila kta tgh sdeh .. Nya akan suka mok polah kta senyum balit .. Kan3 ? Eif ada sorang kwn mcm tok .. Wlpn nya ya x seperiang ne .. Haha .. Tapi bgi Eif, enough lah .. Hehe .. Eif dah ckup bersyukur juak .. Alhamdulillah .. Eif dikurniakan kwn2 yang periang tok .. Hehe ..

10. Sensitif .. Adoh .. Another confession ? Haha .. Sorry but yes ... Adoh .. Saya rsa laen lah pulak .. Apa2 pun, ktk org perlu byk bersbr ngan org mcm tok .. Eif actually bencik lah perange Eif yang sensitif tok .. Merunsingkan jiwa dan raga Eif and org2 di sekeliling Eif .. Tedah org melayan .. Mungkin sbb perange Eif yang cgek tok, org jrg mok kwn ngan Eif .. Eee .. Sdeh eh .. Sorry ya, tapi insyaAllah, Eif akan cba sedaya upaya merubah perange yang langsung x kacak tok .. Calar muka Eif .. Haha .. Apakah ??Tapi benar eh .. X best lalu kalau sensitif tok bah .. Dssbkn perange Eif yg cgek tok, org ssh mok tego kslhn Eif .. Sorang jak berani .. Haha .. Anda tahu sapa diri anda ye .. Hehe .. Saya x nak mention nama ..

Yes ! Dah capai kuota dah .. Eif dah puas typing .. Jari2 tok dah puas menari buat msa skrg .. Apa pulak pendapat anda ? Awal Eif pdh k ? Eif hnya cakap dari point of view Eif .. Ada org x puas hati bah .. Excuse me, Eif x prnh melarang ktk org mok speak up opinion ktk org okay .. Masing2 ada opinion masing2 .. Kan ? And btw, maafkan saya kalau yang terasa .. Eif hnya mensihat drik kdrk and org yang membaca tok .. Kalau da x puas hati, pdh k ? Lak kta puaskan hati masing2 .. Hehe .. And this song is for my awesome readers ! Much love ! CLICK HERE ! :D

Page 298 of 366 : Truth do hurts ..

Assalamualaikum .. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim ..

It's been kinda long time since the last entry .. I don't have idea and stuff to write for you guys to read .. But I think I do have .. NOW .. So, let's just go to the topic .. Shall we ?

Pernah x ktk orang rsa kan, ktk org mok stopkan masa tok .. ktk org mok control masa .. Ktk org mok rewind blit those good times .. Ktk org mok control hidup ktk org supaya happy sentiasa .. Memang suma benda tok like impossible jak kan ? tapi sbnrnya, ktk org blh buat .. Everything ada kaitan dengan emosi .. Almost all la .. Not ALL .. Mok fahamkan ? senang jak ..

Katakanlah, ktk org mok masa best jak .. Those smile and laughin' momentos .. Okay, think k .. Kalau ktk org happy jak, ktk org xkan tauk rsa kehilangan .. rsa susah .. Rasa terpinggir .. Suma rasa yang bertentangan ya lah .. Bila ktk org xrsa semua rasa tok, how ktk org mok ambik pengajaran and learn about life .. Or maybe sometimes, ktk org rsa mcm ktk org xmok tauk kebenaran sbb ya menyakitkan ..

Well, baby .. Kalau kta x tauk kebenaran, mcm ne hidup la ? Ya, life mmg complicated tapi kalau xmok hidup dalam keadaan yang complicated ya kan, ibh hidup jak .. Mati jak .. And bila ktk org dah xda kelak .. ktk org menyusahkan org lain pk betapa sdeh and nyesalnya cdak sbb polah salah kat ktk org and xsempat mintak maaf .. Ataupun, cdak nangis sbb ktk org dah xda .. Mmg lah bnda tok xdpt dielakkan .. Setiap yang hdup, mesti akan pergi juak .. Or ktk org tgk cdak happy2 and get along together after ktk org xda .. Ktk org hanya dpt tgga dari atas jak .. Mcm ne mok nikmati moment yg best ya dgn cdak ? You're DEAD .. Mesti rsa nak hidup balit kan ?

Still don't get it ? Merepak jak saya tok kan .. Hahaha .. Okay la .. Make it simple .. Truth do hurts but that's the fact that you guys must accept .. Betul x ? Kalau xda kebenaran, kita tok hidup dalam penipuan jak la ? Mcm ya .. Kdg2, kebenaran ya boleh bukak mata kta tok .. Either to realise or to change .. Contohnya, ktk org bruk tauk yang kwn ktk org kdrk backstab ktk org .. Or kawan ktk org ya lebih kpd boyfriend or girlfriend cdak .. Sakit oo .. Rasa mcm mok mati .. Eh, prnh rsa mcm ne mati meh ? Skati jak .. Kalau ktk org syg ngan kwn ktk .. Sygkan hbngn ktk org ya, ktk org sepatutnya carik jalan penyelesaian .. Bukannya lari dari semua mslh and lpkkn gya jak .. Or guna terms 'apa mok jadi, jadi la' .. excuse me, org yg gya .. Bait buang tepi parit jak .. *bukan dalam parit k* .. Nampak lalu ktk org ego .. Xpk perasaan org .. And xmok selamatkan hbngn ktk org dgn someone ya and someone gik .. 

Perlu ada sikap tolak ansur .. No selfish2 .. And most important, SINCERITY .. Buang sikap ego ya .. Ambik sikap yang lebih positif and terbuka .. Kalau x, trust me .. Ssh ktk org mok hdup or dipercayai oleh orang .. Once org ckp buruk psl ktk org, org akn cayak .. Most la .. Lurus bendul kan org gya .. Haha .. Kalau yg x cayak ya, mesti nya siasat .. Sbb ne lah tauk org ya dengki dgn kta .. Yalah nya molah crta .. Bukan dapat cayak ngan org sekeliling kta tok .. Even family kdrk .. Manusia tok LEMAH bah .. Mok bukti ? Fikir kdrk .. Haha ..

Oh ya .. One more thing .. Just for sharing .. Menurut salah seorg hamba Allah tok, ada 3 jenis kawan dalam dunia tok .. Tiga main group la .. Musuh, kawan and sahabat .. Musuh tok kan, nya akan cakap benda jaik jak pasal kta .. Kawan, org yang akan ckp psl keburukan and kebaikan kta dekat org lain tnpa kbnrn kta .. Sahabat, org yg xkan crta ngan org lain psl keburukan or kebaikan kta tanpa kbnrn kta .. Majoriti teman2 Eif adalah dalam group keduak .. Susah mok carik sahabat .. Hamba Allah ya pun pdh, nya belum jmp sahabat nya lagik .. Saya pun belum lagik .. :)

Okay, guys .. Sebelum saya mengundur diri, saya mintak maaf lalu2 .. Kot2 ada yang terasa .. Or ada terkasar bahasa *mmg ada pun* .. Segala ter- la .. Hehe .. Tok cuma pendapat jak .. Mok terimak or x, skati ktk org .. Saya x boleh halang .. Ya hak ktk org .. Tapi please hormat saya pun point of view .. :) Alhamdulillah kalau ada yang dapat trmk .. Or ada yang setuju .. Terima kasih daun keladi .. saya tok cuma manusia yang byk kelemahan .. Maafkan saya ye .. Apa2 pun, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha .. :) 

Much love, 
Eifa ;)

Page 271 of 366 : It's gotta be you ;]

Assalamualaikum ..

How are you doing today, dear readers ? Hope you're in the pink of health .. Hehe .. Actually, I've got homework and camp to be handle with but .. Just spending a few minutes to write to you guys .. It's okay :) Writing entry for this blog is on my everyday list .. Shall we continue ? :)

Hmm .. I bet majority of you had been in a relationship before .. I mean between a boy and a girl .. My very first relationship is when I was in Primary 5 .. Too young to get involved in this kind of thing huh ? Hehe .. I know2 .. Although my relationship with that guy didn't last longer but we still studied in the same school .. Same class .. My first relationship with him really affect my life since then .. Can you imagine ? You and your spouse had the same date of birth .. Live near you, that is actually your neighbor .. Both of your parents are good friends with his parents .. Then, studying in the same class since Form 1 until now .. You might think I'm lucky but actually I don't .. Currently, our relationship is just like a very long and straight road .. Without any bumps and stuff .. But it's okay .. Whatever it is, life must go on .. :)

Someone asked me how it feels like being in a relationship at such young age .. Hmm .. For me, it's depends on individuals .. In my opinion, I felt very grateful because he introduced me to love .. Seriously, I understand more about love now .. Not so much, still learning .. Still got a long way to go .. Remember guys .. Every single thing that happened to us, bring some benefits that you don't even realize sometimes .. When you think back, you'll know .. I feels GREAT ! Hehe ..

If I started my very first relationship when I was in Primary 5, what about you ? Some of you might started it when you're in secondary or uni .. Ask yourself .. Why you don't feel like being in relationship at such young age ? Well, if for boys .. Maybe they still want to play around .. Just having fun with their friends .. Or they just wanted to focus on their studies .. But seriously, it is a lie if It depends on one's perspective .. Diff people, diff perspective .. As for the girls, maybe they heard stories from their friends getting hurt by their boyfriend .. Stuff like that .. But all of those reasons can be used on both sides .. Boys and girls .. Agree ?

Oh ya .. one more thing .. I love my dear because I love Allah .. Missing him badly right now .. :') This song is for you .. #np It's Gotta Be You - One Direction ;]

Page 266 of 366 : Sakit ?

Assalamualaikum ..

Xtauk knk rajin lalu mok tulis sampe 2 entries mlm tok .. :) Mungkin byk bnda mok diluahkan sbb buah hati pengarang jantong xda ? Mungkin .. Ataupun, Eif rsa keseorangan ? Mungkin juak .. Or, Eif cuma byk gilak idea ? Mungkin juak ..

Apa2 pun, ju kita crta2 .. :) Tajuk atas ya general lalu kan ? Hmm .. Yup :) Sbnrnya, Eif dah puas merasa sakit dlm perhubungan .. Apa2 hubungan la .. Ya mmg lah perkara biasa pun .. Ala, biasa lah tu .. Hehe .. Kdg2, lebih bagus kta tauk kebenaran ya drpd kta x tauk ? Mmg lah kdg2 kebenaran ya sakit tapi kbnrn ya juak yg bukak mata kita .. Hati kita .. And kdg2 juak, kta tok terlalu leka dgn rsa sayang and cinta terhadap manusia .. Tapi terhadap Tuhan ? Allah ? Sbb yalah kta merasakan kesakitan dlm semua hubungan kecuali hubungan dgn Maha Pencipta ..

Lagik2 la bila kita tok frust gila bila kta dpt tauk org yg kita suka ya suka org laen .. Sakit oo ? And org salu mdh .. Kalau ada jodoh, adalah .. Kalau sebaliknya, Allah mok merik yg jaoh lebih bgs and sesuai dgn kita .. Mmg lah kita xdpt tauk sapa jodoh kita .. Tapi kita dpt rsa bah .. Well, Eif xdpt mok ckp byk psl ya sbb Eif pun blm merasa .. *Blm mok kawen pun* .. Eif selalu berpgg dgn quote ya .. Mmg benar lalu bah .. Yalah .. Kita hanya merancang, Allah yang tentukan sbb Dia tahu apa yg terbaik untuk kita wlpn kita xpk ya terbaik untuk kita .. :)

Tapi ktk org prnh merasa x syg org ya sbb ktk org syg Allah ? Eif mcm merasa tapi Eif xsure la .. Mls lah mok crta .. Kalau bnda ya betul, bruk Eif crta ;) Deal ! By the way, kita dapat tauk kalau orang ya suka sbb paras rupa .. Or, perange .. Ataupun dari hati .. Bak kata abg Eif ..

" Mun seseorang ya ikhlas suka someone, nya akan pilih hati, bukan paras rupa"

Betul bah tu ! Hehe .. *I can see someone is smiling* .. Ya bruk best kan kalau cinta gya ? Pernah ada orang pdh, 'kalau org ya cantik, hati pun cantik .. and sebaliknya..' Konklusinya, think that you are beautiful .. Ada orang cantik semulajadi .. Ada org, senyuman nya yang polah nya cantik .. And ada org, hati nya yang buat nya cantik .. Ktk org group nie ? You decide :) Tapi yalah .. Eif mmg kurang setuju dgn quote atas ya .. Yg psl org cantik ya .. Tgga lah contoh sekeliling ktk org .. Xperlu dimention ctok pun .. :)

Hmm .. Currently listening to Yang Terindah by Dakmie .. Such a sweet song .. Mmg lirik nya power ! Sweet ! Hehe .. Oh ya, currently .. Eif admire someone .. Ya pun, sbb nya dah brik Eif inspirasi .. Yeah ! Makasi, pak ! *Who's that guy ?* Bak kata Siti, biarlah rahsia .. Ecece .. Hehe .. Yalah kali encourage Eif crta psl tok .. Mungkin .. :) Tapi seriously, saya rindu awak .. Take care k ? :') Wasalam ..

Page 266 of 366 : Friends or True Friends ?

Assalamualaikum ..

WOW ! 100 hari lagik before 2012 habis kan ? So, gne hari2 ktk org ? Harap2 okay jak .. Wlpn byk problem ka apa .. InsyaAllah, ktk org dapat hadapinya .. :) Macam2 dah jadi kat Eif sepanjang tahun tok .. Termasok berjumpa and kenal nya .. That is the most greatest and awesome thing had ever happen to me THIS year .. :) Alhamdulillah .. Thank you, Allah .. :')

Okay now .. Focus ! Actually, Eif mok tulis pasal friends and true friends .. Ttba jak ada idea mok tulis tok .. :) Hmm .. Kalau friends tok kan, nya cuma kwn yg kta kenal gya2 jak .. Setakat tauk nama .. And a bit detail pasal cdak .. On the other side, true friends tok .. Nya HAMPIR tauk semua pasal kwn nya ya .. Perange nya .. Rahsia nya .. Kalau blh, every detail nya tauk .. Kawan mcm tok dicarik semua org .. Tapi sbnrnya, ktk org x sedar pun cdak tok dah depan mata ..

Macam kes someone tok .. *Pinjam cerita* .. Nya mok lalu true friends .. Yang fhm nya .. Yang mmg ada di sisi nya xdulik la time gik sedeh ka or happy .. Yang sggp berkorban utk kwn nya .. Kalau Eif pun, Eif mok kawan yang mcm tok .. Sapa lah yang x mok ? Ktk org ? Okay, serious bah ? Haha .. Okay2 .. Continue .. Nya mmg dah ada geng .. 4 org .. Pernah cdak polah cgek aktiviti tok .. Pasal hopes gya la .. Salah satu dari nya, masing2 mok kawan yg mcm Eif sebut tdik .. Cdak pdh cdak blm jmp pun kawan yang gya ..

Bagi Eif lah kan, kta x perlu carik pun .. Mmg dah ada depan mata .. Bagi Eif, Eif mmg terima kwn2 Eif seadanya .. Cuma buang rasa ego and x puas hati ya .. :) *Bkn puji dirik* Tapi tok hakikat bah .. Eif xtauk cne mok carik org mcm cdak lagik .. Dengar kwn Eif sorang mok pindah pun dah gila2 sedeh .. Ssh mok berenti nangis ya .. Tapi dlm kes tdik ya, Eif rsa kwn2 nya msh ego lagik .. Well, manusia tok xpernah puas dgn apa yang cdak ada bah .. Eif rsa Eif dah jmp best friends Eif .. Tapi true friends ya .. Eif harap adalah org yg sama .. :) By the way, Eif rasa masing2 ego lah dlm kes tdik ya .. Cdak mcm mengharapkan lebih jak wlpn sbnrnya, ya dah lebih dri ckup .. Kalau kita act mcm seorg true friend, insyaAllah .. Akn terbuka mata and hati kwn kita ya mok act mcm ya juak .. Mmg ssh and mungkin mengambil masa yang lama tapi x salah pun berusaha kan ? Kita blm tgga hasil nya bah .. Hati manusia tok, ssh kta mok expect .. Terlalu misteri .. :)

Persoalannya sekarang tok ..

KTK ORG DAH JUMPA TRUE FRIENDS KTK ORG ? :)

Page 261 of 366 : Bad year ka ?

Assalamualaikum ..

Ey .. Bad year ya bukan 2012 okay .. 1996 .. Tpi Eif tyk jak .. 1996 ya bad year ka ? Ada sebab mdh Eif gya .. Mok tauk knk ? Ju merepak ! Hehe ..

1. Lesen kereta hanya boleh diambik masa umur 21
2. PLKN adalah WAJIB selama 6 bulan
3. Sejarah ada 3 kertas

Okay seriously ! *Marah tok* Xmasok akal lalu bah .. Mok tauk knk ? *It's time to point out my argument ..*

1. Kalau lah ktk org pk boleh prevent org lumba haram ka apa .. Xkottt .. Sbb kan, org ya ttp akan bljr kereta juak .. Nama juak lumba haram .. Xperlu lesen pun cdak mok lumba ya .. Kalau nya mok ya, mok lah katanya .. Lesen ya bukannya diperlukan kalau dalam lumba haram .. Ada ka kalau org yg mok lumba ya nanyak lok ngan org dgn nya lumba ya, ny da lesen ka x .. X logik lalu .. Xfikir ka ? Gne lah kalau kes mcm Eif tok ? Kakak duak2 pergi belajar .. Parents duak2 keja rah luar bndr .. Sapa nak hntr kmk org ? Mok sruh aunty ? GOSH ! Sapa suka nyusah org ? Ktk org ka ? Oo .. Paduhal .. Bruk tauk ..
2. 6 bulan ya ! SERIOUSLY ! GILA KO ?! Bgs kerja ka oo .. Tpi my sis pdh, kalau kta dpt sambong stdy kan, kta mesti ada sebulan lok rah PLKN bruk lah blh g smbg .. What kah ? And wlpn ada elaun kan, xberapa la .. haha .. Bukan x bersyukur ka apa .. tapi 6 bulan bah .. Apa ndak dpk ktk org oo ? Cba lah mntk pendpt generasi muda wlpn kmk org tek bangang sikit kan .. Tapi kmk org tok lah ganti ktk org lak tauk x ? Kalau lah PLKN ya blh prevent jenayah .. *Yalah, kan semua knk sita dlm Kem PLKN ..* Ingat bila cdak keluar PLKN ya blh bait trs ka ? Manusia tok lemah lah .. Kjap jak trs jaik .. Xsalah lah kalau wajib utk kmk org pun tapi 6 bulan ya terlalu lmk bah .. Pa jak dipolah kmk org ? Berkawad .. Senaman pagi .. Masok keluar hutan .. Aktiviti lasak .. Dah ya, khidmat masyarakat .. Tpi, xperlu lah lamak2 .. Tension juak rsa .. Gne kalau ktk org ? Gila juak kan ? Ujung2, semua boleh masok Tanjong Rambutan .. Xsemua kot, sebab dah full house .. Hahaha ..
3. Okay, tok mmg paksa rela pun term digna .. Ada juak kebaikan nya .. Tapi knpalah ? Huh .. Knpa perlu ada paper 3 ? Ada org mdh sng .. Ada org mdh ssh .. Xtauk lah .. Belum merasa .. Exam akhir tahun tok bruklah merasa .. Open book test .. Sbnrnya, Eif xtauk and xfhm phl ny mesti .. Whatever lah .. Xkesah pun .. Yg penting dapat capai target untuk SPM 2013 .. Ho yeah ! Ho yeah !! Itu dia ! :D

Okay lah .. Puas dah merepak .. Alhamdulillah .. Hehe .. What kah ? Adoiyaii .. Ehh .. Aduiinnaa .. Oo tedah .. Kata Nani .. Hehe ..  Bahlah .. Dah puas dah meloya .. Merepak dan segala me- .. Haha .. Wasalam :)

Page 260 of 366 : A very bad day ..

Assalamualaikum ..

Currently listening to Adamu by Najwa Latif .. A very nice song huh ? :') He slept early tonight .. It's okay lah .. I know how tired he was .. Felt lonely tonight .. I don't want anyone to accompany me except him .. :)

So, my bad day starts when my father wakes me early this morning .. I slept at almost 3 this morning .. Felt very sleepy .. But still, I got up and help my mum .. Then, I felt QUITE BAD that both of my friends DID NOT reply my text or answer my call .. After that, I got to know that they can't sleep at my house today .. Because too tired .. But seriously ? Who will NOT get mad after you tried to reach them like 'billions' time ? But they are my friends .. Just that, I also got feeling what .. Hmm ..

Next thing .. He do not reply my text .. He did but late la .. It's okay .. Then, as usual .. Mengadu time ! Lepas puas ngadu ya .. Tkr topik .. Tapi, psl a girl lah pulak .. HUH ! Sabar jak lah .. Sabar sangat2 .. :') Nya xsengaja pun .. Eifa pun xtauk phl eif lebih percaya nya dripda laki yg eif knl sblm tok .. Mls lah nak pikir .. POLITIK .. Haha .. Then, mcm besa juak .. hilang lagi .. Aduinaa .. Haha .. Ttba jak org lain yg text .. Maaf .. Number dia so, saya lyn dia .. Nmbr awak, bru saya layan awak .. Plus, I do not know you .. Sorry ya .. Bukan sombong .. Cuma langkah berjaga-jaga .. :)

One more thing .. About the open house .. Xda sorang pun orang yang Eif jemput ya dtg .. Sedeh x ? Adoiiyaii .. Bukannya x lagik ya .. Dah ya tek, salad Eif xdpt dimkn .. Mcm useless jak molah .. Tang nyaman jak bau nya .. Kurang ajar punya lalat .. Gne ko masok pun aku x tauk .. Xpa lah, bukan rezeki kan .. Nak molah mcm ne lagik ..

Bah lah .. Mok tido sudah .. Apa2 pun .. Saya dah maafkan sapa2 yang mungkin rasa berslh dgn saya hari nie .. :) Wasalam ..

Page 260 of 366 : Seriously ?!

Assalamualaikum ..

Hmm .. How to start huh ? This few days .. I heard about politics and rumors .. About Semenanjung and Borneo .. Now, just forget about the politics .. I hate politics actually .. But, when it's come to two diff sides that supposed to be ONE .. That's really annoying .. Okay2 .. By the way .. Actually, I heard about this 'thing' from one of my friend .. And seriously .. I was SHOCKED ! Want to know ? Waitt ...

Firstly, click this LINK .. *Let me use Malay .. :)* The very first impression saya tgk trailer tok .. Hati mmg sakit .. Of course la terkejut .. Komen saya terhadap cerita ini .. Banyak fakta yang salah .. Antaranya ..

• Nabi Muhammad adalah seorang gay
• Nabi mempunyai 61 isteri dan berkahwin 11 pada satu masa dan juga teman wanita
• Baginda membunuh lelaki, merogol perempuan dan menjadi kanak-kanak sebagai hamba. Selepas puas dijadikan hamba, kanak-kanak tersebut akan dijual. Baginda melakukan semua ini kerana Allah.

Itu sahaja yang saya faham .. Saya tak tahu bagaimana cerita ini boleh terjadi .. Sebab saya kurang fhm apa yang terjadi .. Yang saya tauk, mereka menghina nabi .. Hmm .. Sebenarnya, saya speechless bila dapat tauk pasal benda tok .. Saya mok betulkan fakta di atas ..

• Nabi Muhammad bukanlah seorang gay. Untuk membuktikan, baginda berkahwin dengan wanita dan bukan lelaki.
• Nabi hanya mempunyai 4 orang isteri.
• Mungkin anda fikir perbuatan ini adalah jihad tapi tidak sama sekali. Baginda seorang yang penyayang dan baik hati.

Mungkin bukti ini kurang kukuh. Apa-apa pun, adalah lebih baik jika kita buat kajian dahulu .. Saya mungkin kurang faham tentang apa yang berlaku .. Tapi menghina Nabi adalah sesuatu yang sukar diterima oleh semua umat Islam .. Nabi Muhammad SAW tidak bersalah langsung .. Astaghfirullah .. Kita tinggal di atas BUMI yang sama .. Masih atas tanah .. Pihak atasan sepatutnya ambik tindakan bah .. Seriously, bad things boleh jadi gara-gara benda tok jak .. Apalh guna bermusuhan ? Jangan jadi RACIST .. Jangan sampai perkara lama berulang lagi ..

Bagi saya, tidak salah jika kita bertolak ansur dan tidak mementingakn diri sendiri .. Saya pun ada kawan yang beragama lain dan kami hidup bahagia asalkan masih ada sifat hormat terhadap agama masing-masing .. Maafkan saya jika kata-kata saya yang seterusnya ini mungkin menyakitkan hati .. Tapi, saya percaya .. Tiada satu agama pun yang tiada sifat tolak ansur .. Betul ? Dan saya percaya semua agama mengamalkan sifat hormat-menghormati antara satu sama lain ..

Kalaulah saya mampu mengubah cara seseorang berfikir .. Langkah terbaik sekarang ialah .. Bagi yang Islam, berdoalah supaya semua ini berakhir dengan segera .. Banyakkanlah bersabar walaupun kita dalam keadaan marah .. Mohon perlindungan daripada Allah .. Jangan sesekali mengambil langkah untuk mengutuk kembali .. Islam tidak mengajar kita bertindak sedemikian .. Bagi agama lain, jangan percaya sebelum membuat kajian terlebih dahulu .. Jangan bertindak terburu-buru .. Kalau kita saling menghormati agama masing-masing .. InsyaAllah .. Aman kita hidup .. Saya rasa anda pun tak nak hidup dalam tidak aman kan ? I am very sure about that .. 

Saya hanyalah seorang hamba Allah yang banyak kekurangan .. Andai ada kata-kata yang kurang jelas ataupun menyakitkan hati, maafkan saya .. 

" Ya Allah, kau jauhkanlah kami dari segala bala. Berikanlah kami petunjuk. berilah kami kekuatan. Hanya kepadamu kami berserah. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin."

 Saya hanyalah mengeluarkan pendapat saya .. I am really concern about this .. But ..

WHAT ABOUT YOU ???

Page 255 of 366 : If I were .......

Assalamualaikum .. :)

Very cold evening .. It is raining at my place .. Hehe .. So, the topic ? Oh ya, actually .. That is one of our topic for our next oral assessment this coming Tuesday .. That is next week .. We are given 5 topics basically .. And I really do not have any idea for ALL of the topics .. Which one should I choose ?

• Myself
• Superheroes
• My future plans
• Love
• If I were ....

Plus, the script must be handed in on Friday .. This Friday .. Oh oral ! Hehe .. Great news ! I give POSITIVE response in Chemistry class today .. A bit la .. But getting praises from the teacher is enough for me ! Hehe .. We are currently studying the Form 5 syllabus and now in Chapter 3 .. Oxidation and Reduction .. :) It is kinda weird that I managed to understand faster than the Form 4 syllabus .. WEIRD ! *He always say that I am weird .. Haha* 

For the other subjects ? Just okay .. For now, we only learn Form 5 Mathematics and Chemistry .. And soon, Biology and Physics .. This makes me realize of something .. WE HAD GROWN UP ! Aww .. Daddy's little girl is a big girl now .. Hehe .. Talking about Mathematics .. Don't you feel weird ? I scored in my Maths but not Add Maths .. Adoyaii ..

It's 6 already ! Yeah .. Buah hati pengarang jantung balik sudah .. Hehe .. So, saya undurkan diri dulu .. Assalamualaikum :)

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Assalamualaikum ..

Hmm .. Pretty cold here .. It's raining .. By the way, pretty interesting topic huh ? I don't really know why I really love writing entries for this blog .. Maybe I am about to go ? Astaghfirullah .. Only Allah know .. :) And ya, shall we continue ?

First, let me give you some situation ..

Situation
A couple is going out for a date at the beach .. While enjoying the sunset, the boy's phone rings .. Looks like, it is an emergency call ..
Boy : Hey, are you sure you want to stay ? I really need to go now ..
Girl : Don't you worry about me .. I will be fine .. *smiling* Just in love with the sunset ..
Boy : Okay .. *kissing her*
Girl : Thanks .. Can I ask something ?
Boy : Sure .. What is it, dear ?
Girl : Can you please hug me for the last time ?
Boy : Last time ? *Without wasting any time, he hugs her tightly ..* I am so sorry that I have to go ..
Girl : It's okay .. I will be fine .. Love ya ! Take care ..
Boy : Me too, darlin' ! And you too ! *smiling*

So, the boy drive his car to the hospital ..

That night, the boy calls the girl .. After several times, there's someone answering the phone call ..

Boy : Hello .. Who's there ? Where is Jane ?
Suzy : Hey, it's Suzy .. You have to come to the hospital ..
Boy : Why ? Is everything alright ?
Suzy : Please hurry up .. *Hang up*

The boy rushed to the hospital .. And get a bad news .. He don't know that the girl have brain cancer and she only got a few months left to survive .. But she fails .. And that was the last day for her to live .. The boy just can't accept the fact that he cries for almost everyday ..

Now2, I know the story macam tergantong jak .. Kehabisan idea & kekeringan otak sudah ! Hahaha .. So, if you are the boy, what will you do ? 

If I am the boy, the very first thing I will is DEFINITELY cry .. Because seriously, who will NOT cry if someone just leave you like that ? Yes, people with no feeling .. But cannot deny that some of them just control their emotion and just accept the fact .. So ya .. Then .. *maybe I should use BM* .. Haha .. Okay .. Kak ya kan, sentiasa ingat yang kita pasti akan merasa kehilangan .. Sapa2 jak la .. Tapi percaya lah, ada sebab nya tgglkan kita .. Sbg cnth, my late uncle .. Nya meninggalkan kmk org pada 15 Oktober 2010 .. That was on Friday and kebetulan .. Hari ya, hari jadi my friend, Irfan Maslan .. Well, actually .. My uncle lumpuh kakinya .. I don't really remember since when .. Tapi maybe death is the best way sbb nya dah lamak sakit mcm ya .. Sapa sggp tgga ? Eifa pun x sggp tgga .. Tapi bna lah .. Lepas ny pergi, sunyi lalu rasa .. Sbb nya lah uncle yang plg kamceng ngan kmk org .. ya Allah, semoga dia di tempat di kalangan org2 yang beriman .. Al-Fatihah .. Kmk org mmg rindu tapi bnda dah jadi and kmk org xdpt buat apa2 utk kembalinya kat dunia tok .. 

Okay, enough about that .. Klak da jak menangis .. Alhamdulillah .. Kmk org pun dah move on .. Cgek cara gik kan, mind set kita tok .. Ktk org rsa mungkin ktk org xdpt hdup tnpa cdak kan ? Tapi please move on .. Sbb ya jak reason kita tok maseh hidup .. Go on with your life .. Jangan seksa dirik .. X bagus .. tauk x ? X bgs bersedeh terlalu lama ats kematian seseorg .. I think you know why kan ? :) gik pun, bkn eifa suruh lupakkn 'nya' .. trust me, ny sentiasa dalam hati ktk org .. :)

One last thing .. Dekatkan diri ktk org ngan Tuhan, and manusia2 di sekeliling ktk org .. Supaya ktk org xrasa lonely .. Supaya ktk org dpt rasa 'life' .. Supaya ktk org dpt trmk kenyataan .. :) Believe me, it will work if you do it with sincere ..

Okay now .. That is all for now .. About the situation ya, xda kaitan dgn yg hidup atau yang sudah tiada .. :) Assalamualaikum ..

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Assalamualaikum .. 

I just feel like writing .. That's all ;D Currently listening to Istikarah Cinta by Sigma .. Well, excuse me .. Just heard it .. First time :) Oh ya bloggy .. I think my readers want to know right ? Yes, about today la .. Nervous huh ? Haha .. School was okay .. Just a bit tiring after me and Shaey go around the school to collect the donation for the orang utan .. Our school got adopt an orang utan bah .. Bla bla bla .. Ya ya ya .. Whatever .. Now2, after that .. Feel kinda happy after we get the permission to make our dream come true ! Just that, I don't know the reason why we should invite him too .. Hmm .. If Allah's will .. We can invite him for some reason .. Should I ask him first or should I ask the teacher first ? Now I'm blur .. Haha ..

Sorry if I've laugh too much .. I think I am really tension with the promises .. The camps .. The what-so-ever .. Huhh .. And today is the day where I WILL feels bad almost at ALL time .. This will happen to me few times in a year .. Something like that .. I will cry to feel better .. And at this day, I will start to feel that I really miss someone .. That someone could be anyone .. But today, I started to feel that I really that boy .. That caring boy .. That boy that never tired of me .. That boy that will listen to all what I said .. That boy I really love to talk too .. That boy I love because of Allah .. :') Let's just keep it a secret of who is really the boy I mention in this entry .. May our relationship will always be bless .. InsyaAllah .. Eyy .. Please don't be too emotional here .. Haha .. I don't want too .. Ya Allah, I really miss him .. A BUNCH !

Now, Eifa .. Please focus on your aim .. His aim .. Both of you .. OMG ! This song !! Very sentimental punya song .. Have to go now .. Want to meet Allah first, then go jalan2 with my family .. Assalamualaikum .. *Btw, I hope he can make my day :)