Page 271 of 366 : It's gotta be you ;]

Assalamualaikum ..

How are you doing today, dear readers ? Hope you're in the pink of health .. Hehe .. Actually, I've got homework and camp to be handle with but .. Just spending a few minutes to write to you guys .. It's okay :) Writing entry for this blog is on my everyday list .. Shall we continue ? :)

Hmm .. I bet majority of you had been in a relationship before .. I mean between a boy and a girl .. My very first relationship is when I was in Primary 5 .. Too young to get involved in this kind of thing huh ? Hehe .. I know2 .. Although my relationship with that guy didn't last longer but we still studied in the same school .. Same class .. My first relationship with him really affect my life since then .. Can you imagine ? You and your spouse had the same date of birth .. Live near you, that is actually your neighbor .. Both of your parents are good friends with his parents .. Then, studying in the same class since Form 1 until now .. You might think I'm lucky but actually I don't .. Currently, our relationship is just like a very long and straight road .. Without any bumps and stuff .. But it's okay .. Whatever it is, life must go on .. :)

Someone asked me how it feels like being in a relationship at such young age .. Hmm .. For me, it's depends on individuals .. In my opinion, I felt very grateful because he introduced me to love .. Seriously, I understand more about love now .. Not so much, still learning .. Still got a long way to go .. Remember guys .. Every single thing that happened to us, bring some benefits that you don't even realize sometimes .. When you think back, you'll know .. I feels GREAT ! Hehe ..

If I started my very first relationship when I was in Primary 5, what about you ? Some of you might started it when you're in secondary or uni .. Ask yourself .. Why you don't feel like being in relationship at such young age ? Well, if for boys .. Maybe they still want to play around .. Just having fun with their friends .. Or they just wanted to focus on their studies .. But seriously, it is a lie if It depends on one's perspective .. Diff people, diff perspective .. As for the girls, maybe they heard stories from their friends getting hurt by their boyfriend .. Stuff like that .. But all of those reasons can be used on both sides .. Boys and girls .. Agree ?

Oh ya .. one more thing .. I love my dear because I love Allah .. Missing him badly right now .. :') This song is for you .. #np It's Gotta Be You - One Direction ;]

Page 266 of 366 : Sakit ?

Assalamualaikum ..

Xtauk knk rajin lalu mok tulis sampe 2 entries mlm tok .. :) Mungkin byk bnda mok diluahkan sbb buah hati pengarang jantong xda ? Mungkin .. Ataupun, Eif rsa keseorangan ? Mungkin juak .. Or, Eif cuma byk gilak idea ? Mungkin juak ..

Apa2 pun, ju kita crta2 .. :) Tajuk atas ya general lalu kan ? Hmm .. Yup :) Sbnrnya, Eif dah puas merasa sakit dlm perhubungan .. Apa2 hubungan la .. Ya mmg lah perkara biasa pun .. Ala, biasa lah tu .. Hehe .. Kdg2, lebih bagus kta tauk kebenaran ya drpd kta x tauk ? Mmg lah kdg2 kebenaran ya sakit tapi kbnrn ya juak yg bukak mata kita .. Hati kita .. And kdg2 juak, kta tok terlalu leka dgn rsa sayang and cinta terhadap manusia .. Tapi terhadap Tuhan ? Allah ? Sbb yalah kta merasakan kesakitan dlm semua hubungan kecuali hubungan dgn Maha Pencipta ..

Lagik2 la bila kita tok frust gila bila kta dpt tauk org yg kita suka ya suka org laen .. Sakit oo ? And org salu mdh .. Kalau ada jodoh, adalah .. Kalau sebaliknya, Allah mok merik yg jaoh lebih bgs and sesuai dgn kita .. Mmg lah kita xdpt tauk sapa jodoh kita .. Tapi kita dpt rsa bah .. Well, Eif xdpt mok ckp byk psl ya sbb Eif pun blm merasa .. *Blm mok kawen pun* .. Eif selalu berpgg dgn quote ya .. Mmg benar lalu bah .. Yalah .. Kita hanya merancang, Allah yang tentukan sbb Dia tahu apa yg terbaik untuk kita wlpn kita xpk ya terbaik untuk kita .. :)

Tapi ktk org prnh merasa x syg org ya sbb ktk org syg Allah ? Eif mcm merasa tapi Eif xsure la .. Mls lah mok crta .. Kalau bnda ya betul, bruk Eif crta ;) Deal ! By the way, kita dapat tauk kalau orang ya suka sbb paras rupa .. Or, perange .. Ataupun dari hati .. Bak kata abg Eif ..

" Mun seseorang ya ikhlas suka someone, nya akan pilih hati, bukan paras rupa"

Betul bah tu ! Hehe .. *I can see someone is smiling* .. Ya bruk best kan kalau cinta gya ? Pernah ada orang pdh, 'kalau org ya cantik, hati pun cantik .. and sebaliknya..' Konklusinya, think that you are beautiful .. Ada orang cantik semulajadi .. Ada org, senyuman nya yang polah nya cantik .. And ada org, hati nya yang buat nya cantik .. Ktk org group nie ? You decide :) Tapi yalah .. Eif mmg kurang setuju dgn quote atas ya .. Yg psl org cantik ya .. Tgga lah contoh sekeliling ktk org .. Xperlu dimention ctok pun .. :)

Hmm .. Currently listening to Yang Terindah by Dakmie .. Such a sweet song .. Mmg lirik nya power ! Sweet ! Hehe .. Oh ya, currently .. Eif admire someone .. Ya pun, sbb nya dah brik Eif inspirasi .. Yeah ! Makasi, pak ! *Who's that guy ?* Bak kata Siti, biarlah rahsia .. Ecece .. Hehe .. Yalah kali encourage Eif crta psl tok .. Mungkin .. :) Tapi seriously, saya rindu awak .. Take care k ? :') Wasalam ..

Page 266 of 366 : Friends or True Friends ?

Assalamualaikum ..

WOW ! 100 hari lagik before 2012 habis kan ? So, gne hari2 ktk org ? Harap2 okay jak .. Wlpn byk problem ka apa .. InsyaAllah, ktk org dapat hadapinya .. :) Macam2 dah jadi kat Eif sepanjang tahun tok .. Termasok berjumpa and kenal nya .. That is the most greatest and awesome thing had ever happen to me THIS year .. :) Alhamdulillah .. Thank you, Allah .. :')

Okay now .. Focus ! Actually, Eif mok tulis pasal friends and true friends .. Ttba jak ada idea mok tulis tok .. :) Hmm .. Kalau friends tok kan, nya cuma kwn yg kta kenal gya2 jak .. Setakat tauk nama .. And a bit detail pasal cdak .. On the other side, true friends tok .. Nya HAMPIR tauk semua pasal kwn nya ya .. Perange nya .. Rahsia nya .. Kalau blh, every detail nya tauk .. Kawan mcm tok dicarik semua org .. Tapi sbnrnya, ktk org x sedar pun cdak tok dah depan mata ..

Macam kes someone tok .. *Pinjam cerita* .. Nya mok lalu true friends .. Yang fhm nya .. Yang mmg ada di sisi nya xdulik la time gik sedeh ka or happy .. Yang sggp berkorban utk kwn nya .. Kalau Eif pun, Eif mok kawan yang mcm tok .. Sapa lah yang x mok ? Ktk org ? Okay, serious bah ? Haha .. Okay2 .. Continue .. Nya mmg dah ada geng .. 4 org .. Pernah cdak polah cgek aktiviti tok .. Pasal hopes gya la .. Salah satu dari nya, masing2 mok kawan yg mcm Eif sebut tdik .. Cdak pdh cdak blm jmp pun kawan yang gya ..

Bagi Eif lah kan, kta x perlu carik pun .. Mmg dah ada depan mata .. Bagi Eif, Eif mmg terima kwn2 Eif seadanya .. Cuma buang rasa ego and x puas hati ya .. :) *Bkn puji dirik* Tapi tok hakikat bah .. Eif xtauk cne mok carik org mcm cdak lagik .. Dengar kwn Eif sorang mok pindah pun dah gila2 sedeh .. Ssh mok berenti nangis ya .. Tapi dlm kes tdik ya, Eif rsa kwn2 nya msh ego lagik .. Well, manusia tok xpernah puas dgn apa yang cdak ada bah .. Eif rsa Eif dah jmp best friends Eif .. Tapi true friends ya .. Eif harap adalah org yg sama .. :) By the way, Eif rasa masing2 ego lah dlm kes tdik ya .. Cdak mcm mengharapkan lebih jak wlpn sbnrnya, ya dah lebih dri ckup .. Kalau kita act mcm seorg true friend, insyaAllah .. Akn terbuka mata and hati kwn kita ya mok act mcm ya juak .. Mmg ssh and mungkin mengambil masa yang lama tapi x salah pun berusaha kan ? Kita blm tgga hasil nya bah .. Hati manusia tok, ssh kta mok expect .. Terlalu misteri .. :)

Persoalannya sekarang tok ..

KTK ORG DAH JUMPA TRUE FRIENDS KTK ORG ? :)

Page 261 of 366 : Bad year ka ?

Assalamualaikum ..

Ey .. Bad year ya bukan 2012 okay .. 1996 .. Tpi Eif tyk jak .. 1996 ya bad year ka ? Ada sebab mdh Eif gya .. Mok tauk knk ? Ju merepak ! Hehe ..

1. Lesen kereta hanya boleh diambik masa umur 21
2. PLKN adalah WAJIB selama 6 bulan
3. Sejarah ada 3 kertas

Okay seriously ! *Marah tok* Xmasok akal lalu bah .. Mok tauk knk ? *It's time to point out my argument ..*

1. Kalau lah ktk org pk boleh prevent org lumba haram ka apa .. Xkottt .. Sbb kan, org ya ttp akan bljr kereta juak .. Nama juak lumba haram .. Xperlu lesen pun cdak mok lumba ya .. Kalau nya mok ya, mok lah katanya .. Lesen ya bukannya diperlukan kalau dalam lumba haram .. Ada ka kalau org yg mok lumba ya nanyak lok ngan org dgn nya lumba ya, ny da lesen ka x .. X logik lalu .. Xfikir ka ? Gne lah kalau kes mcm Eif tok ? Kakak duak2 pergi belajar .. Parents duak2 keja rah luar bndr .. Sapa nak hntr kmk org ? Mok sruh aunty ? GOSH ! Sapa suka nyusah org ? Ktk org ka ? Oo .. Paduhal .. Bruk tauk ..
2. 6 bulan ya ! SERIOUSLY ! GILA KO ?! Bgs kerja ka oo .. Tpi my sis pdh, kalau kta dpt sambong stdy kan, kta mesti ada sebulan lok rah PLKN bruk lah blh g smbg .. What kah ? And wlpn ada elaun kan, xberapa la .. haha .. Bukan x bersyukur ka apa .. tapi 6 bulan bah .. Apa ndak dpk ktk org oo ? Cba lah mntk pendpt generasi muda wlpn kmk org tek bangang sikit kan .. Tapi kmk org tok lah ganti ktk org lak tauk x ? Kalau lah PLKN ya blh prevent jenayah .. *Yalah, kan semua knk sita dlm Kem PLKN ..* Ingat bila cdak keluar PLKN ya blh bait trs ka ? Manusia tok lemah lah .. Kjap jak trs jaik .. Xsalah lah kalau wajib utk kmk org pun tapi 6 bulan ya terlalu lmk bah .. Pa jak dipolah kmk org ? Berkawad .. Senaman pagi .. Masok keluar hutan .. Aktiviti lasak .. Dah ya, khidmat masyarakat .. Tpi, xperlu lah lamak2 .. Tension juak rsa .. Gne kalau ktk org ? Gila juak kan ? Ujung2, semua boleh masok Tanjong Rambutan .. Xsemua kot, sebab dah full house .. Hahaha ..
3. Okay, tok mmg paksa rela pun term digna .. Ada juak kebaikan nya .. Tapi knpalah ? Huh .. Knpa perlu ada paper 3 ? Ada org mdh sng .. Ada org mdh ssh .. Xtauk lah .. Belum merasa .. Exam akhir tahun tok bruklah merasa .. Open book test .. Sbnrnya, Eif xtauk and xfhm phl ny mesti .. Whatever lah .. Xkesah pun .. Yg penting dapat capai target untuk SPM 2013 .. Ho yeah ! Ho yeah !! Itu dia ! :D

Okay lah .. Puas dah merepak .. Alhamdulillah .. Hehe .. What kah ? Adoiyaii .. Ehh .. Aduiinnaa .. Oo tedah .. Kata Nani .. Hehe ..  Bahlah .. Dah puas dah meloya .. Merepak dan segala me- .. Haha .. Wasalam :)

Page 260 of 366 : A very bad day ..

Assalamualaikum ..

Currently listening to Adamu by Najwa Latif .. A very nice song huh ? :') He slept early tonight .. It's okay lah .. I know how tired he was .. Felt lonely tonight .. I don't want anyone to accompany me except him .. :)

So, my bad day starts when my father wakes me early this morning .. I slept at almost 3 this morning .. Felt very sleepy .. But still, I got up and help my mum .. Then, I felt QUITE BAD that both of my friends DID NOT reply my text or answer my call .. After that, I got to know that they can't sleep at my house today .. Because too tired .. But seriously ? Who will NOT get mad after you tried to reach them like 'billions' time ? But they are my friends .. Just that, I also got feeling what .. Hmm ..

Next thing .. He do not reply my text .. He did but late la .. It's okay .. Then, as usual .. Mengadu time ! Lepas puas ngadu ya .. Tkr topik .. Tapi, psl a girl lah pulak .. HUH ! Sabar jak lah .. Sabar sangat2 .. :') Nya xsengaja pun .. Eifa pun xtauk phl eif lebih percaya nya dripda laki yg eif knl sblm tok .. Mls lah nak pikir .. POLITIK .. Haha .. Then, mcm besa juak .. hilang lagi .. Aduinaa .. Haha .. Ttba jak org lain yg text .. Maaf .. Number dia so, saya lyn dia .. Nmbr awak, bru saya layan awak .. Plus, I do not know you .. Sorry ya .. Bukan sombong .. Cuma langkah berjaga-jaga .. :)

One more thing .. About the open house .. Xda sorang pun orang yang Eif jemput ya dtg .. Sedeh x ? Adoiiyaii .. Bukannya x lagik ya .. Dah ya tek, salad Eif xdpt dimkn .. Mcm useless jak molah .. Tang nyaman jak bau nya .. Kurang ajar punya lalat .. Gne ko masok pun aku x tauk .. Xpa lah, bukan rezeki kan .. Nak molah mcm ne lagik ..

Bah lah .. Mok tido sudah .. Apa2 pun .. Saya dah maafkan sapa2 yang mungkin rasa berslh dgn saya hari nie .. :) Wasalam ..

Page 260 of 366 : Seriously ?!

Assalamualaikum ..

Hmm .. How to start huh ? This few days .. I heard about politics and rumors .. About Semenanjung and Borneo .. Now, just forget about the politics .. I hate politics actually .. But, when it's come to two diff sides that supposed to be ONE .. That's really annoying .. Okay2 .. By the way .. Actually, I heard about this 'thing' from one of my friend .. And seriously .. I was SHOCKED ! Want to know ? Waitt ...

Firstly, click this LINK .. *Let me use Malay .. :)* The very first impression saya tgk trailer tok .. Hati mmg sakit .. Of course la terkejut .. Komen saya terhadap cerita ini .. Banyak fakta yang salah .. Antaranya ..

• Nabi Muhammad adalah seorang gay
• Nabi mempunyai 61 isteri dan berkahwin 11 pada satu masa dan juga teman wanita
• Baginda membunuh lelaki, merogol perempuan dan menjadi kanak-kanak sebagai hamba. Selepas puas dijadikan hamba, kanak-kanak tersebut akan dijual. Baginda melakukan semua ini kerana Allah.

Itu sahaja yang saya faham .. Saya tak tahu bagaimana cerita ini boleh terjadi .. Sebab saya kurang fhm apa yang terjadi .. Yang saya tauk, mereka menghina nabi .. Hmm .. Sebenarnya, saya speechless bila dapat tauk pasal benda tok .. Saya mok betulkan fakta di atas ..

• Nabi Muhammad bukanlah seorang gay. Untuk membuktikan, baginda berkahwin dengan wanita dan bukan lelaki.
• Nabi hanya mempunyai 4 orang isteri.
• Mungkin anda fikir perbuatan ini adalah jihad tapi tidak sama sekali. Baginda seorang yang penyayang dan baik hati.

Mungkin bukti ini kurang kukuh. Apa-apa pun, adalah lebih baik jika kita buat kajian dahulu .. Saya mungkin kurang faham tentang apa yang berlaku .. Tapi menghina Nabi adalah sesuatu yang sukar diterima oleh semua umat Islam .. Nabi Muhammad SAW tidak bersalah langsung .. Astaghfirullah .. Kita tinggal di atas BUMI yang sama .. Masih atas tanah .. Pihak atasan sepatutnya ambik tindakan bah .. Seriously, bad things boleh jadi gara-gara benda tok jak .. Apalh guna bermusuhan ? Jangan jadi RACIST .. Jangan sampai perkara lama berulang lagi ..

Bagi saya, tidak salah jika kita bertolak ansur dan tidak mementingakn diri sendiri .. Saya pun ada kawan yang beragama lain dan kami hidup bahagia asalkan masih ada sifat hormat terhadap agama masing-masing .. Maafkan saya jika kata-kata saya yang seterusnya ini mungkin menyakitkan hati .. Tapi, saya percaya .. Tiada satu agama pun yang tiada sifat tolak ansur .. Betul ? Dan saya percaya semua agama mengamalkan sifat hormat-menghormati antara satu sama lain ..

Kalaulah saya mampu mengubah cara seseorang berfikir .. Langkah terbaik sekarang ialah .. Bagi yang Islam, berdoalah supaya semua ini berakhir dengan segera .. Banyakkanlah bersabar walaupun kita dalam keadaan marah .. Mohon perlindungan daripada Allah .. Jangan sesekali mengambil langkah untuk mengutuk kembali .. Islam tidak mengajar kita bertindak sedemikian .. Bagi agama lain, jangan percaya sebelum membuat kajian terlebih dahulu .. Jangan bertindak terburu-buru .. Kalau kita saling menghormati agama masing-masing .. InsyaAllah .. Aman kita hidup .. Saya rasa anda pun tak nak hidup dalam tidak aman kan ? I am very sure about that .. 

Saya hanyalah seorang hamba Allah yang banyak kekurangan .. Andai ada kata-kata yang kurang jelas ataupun menyakitkan hati, maafkan saya .. 

" Ya Allah, kau jauhkanlah kami dari segala bala. Berikanlah kami petunjuk. berilah kami kekuatan. Hanya kepadamu kami berserah. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin."

 Saya hanyalah mengeluarkan pendapat saya .. I am really concern about this .. But ..

WHAT ABOUT YOU ???

Page 255 of 366 : If I were .......

Assalamualaikum .. :)

Very cold evening .. It is raining at my place .. Hehe .. So, the topic ? Oh ya, actually .. That is one of our topic for our next oral assessment this coming Tuesday .. That is next week .. We are given 5 topics basically .. And I really do not have any idea for ALL of the topics .. Which one should I choose ?

• Myself
• Superheroes
• My future plans
• Love
• If I were ....

Plus, the script must be handed in on Friday .. This Friday .. Oh oral ! Hehe .. Great news ! I give POSITIVE response in Chemistry class today .. A bit la .. But getting praises from the teacher is enough for me ! Hehe .. We are currently studying the Form 5 syllabus and now in Chapter 3 .. Oxidation and Reduction .. :) It is kinda weird that I managed to understand faster than the Form 4 syllabus .. WEIRD ! *He always say that I am weird .. Haha* 

For the other subjects ? Just okay .. For now, we only learn Form 5 Mathematics and Chemistry .. And soon, Biology and Physics .. This makes me realize of something .. WE HAD GROWN UP ! Aww .. Daddy's little girl is a big girl now .. Hehe .. Talking about Mathematics .. Don't you feel weird ? I scored in my Maths but not Add Maths .. Adoyaii ..

It's 6 already ! Yeah .. Buah hati pengarang jantung balik sudah .. Hehe .. So, saya undurkan diri dulu .. Assalamualaikum :)

Page 250 of 366 : Belajar untuk melepaskan ..

Assalamualaikum ..

Hmm .. Pretty cold here .. It's raining .. By the way, pretty interesting topic huh ? I don't really know why I really love writing entries for this blog .. Maybe I am about to go ? Astaghfirullah .. Only Allah know .. :) And ya, shall we continue ?

First, let me give you some situation ..

Situation
A couple is going out for a date at the beach .. While enjoying the sunset, the boy's phone rings .. Looks like, it is an emergency call ..
Boy : Hey, are you sure you want to stay ? I really need to go now ..
Girl : Don't you worry about me .. I will be fine .. *smiling* Just in love with the sunset ..
Boy : Okay .. *kissing her*
Girl : Thanks .. Can I ask something ?
Boy : Sure .. What is it, dear ?
Girl : Can you please hug me for the last time ?
Boy : Last time ? *Without wasting any time, he hugs her tightly ..* I am so sorry that I have to go ..
Girl : It's okay .. I will be fine .. Love ya ! Take care ..
Boy : Me too, darlin' ! And you too ! *smiling*

So, the boy drive his car to the hospital ..

That night, the boy calls the girl .. After several times, there's someone answering the phone call ..

Boy : Hello .. Who's there ? Where is Jane ?
Suzy : Hey, it's Suzy .. You have to come to the hospital ..
Boy : Why ? Is everything alright ?
Suzy : Please hurry up .. *Hang up*

The boy rushed to the hospital .. And get a bad news .. He don't know that the girl have brain cancer and she only got a few months left to survive .. But she fails .. And that was the last day for her to live .. The boy just can't accept the fact that he cries for almost everyday ..

Now2, I know the story macam tergantong jak .. Kehabisan idea & kekeringan otak sudah ! Hahaha .. So, if you are the boy, what will you do ? 

If I am the boy, the very first thing I will is DEFINITELY cry .. Because seriously, who will NOT cry if someone just leave you like that ? Yes, people with no feeling .. But cannot deny that some of them just control their emotion and just accept the fact .. So ya .. Then .. *maybe I should use BM* .. Haha .. Okay .. Kak ya kan, sentiasa ingat yang kita pasti akan merasa kehilangan .. Sapa2 jak la .. Tapi percaya lah, ada sebab nya tgglkan kita .. Sbg cnth, my late uncle .. Nya meninggalkan kmk org pada 15 Oktober 2010 .. That was on Friday and kebetulan .. Hari ya, hari jadi my friend, Irfan Maslan .. Well, actually .. My uncle lumpuh kakinya .. I don't really remember since when .. Tapi maybe death is the best way sbb nya dah lamak sakit mcm ya .. Sapa sggp tgga ? Eifa pun x sggp tgga .. Tapi bna lah .. Lepas ny pergi, sunyi lalu rasa .. Sbb nya lah uncle yang plg kamceng ngan kmk org .. ya Allah, semoga dia di tempat di kalangan org2 yang beriman .. Al-Fatihah .. Kmk org mmg rindu tapi bnda dah jadi and kmk org xdpt buat apa2 utk kembalinya kat dunia tok .. 

Okay, enough about that .. Klak da jak menangis .. Alhamdulillah .. Kmk org pun dah move on .. Cgek cara gik kan, mind set kita tok .. Ktk org rsa mungkin ktk org xdpt hdup tnpa cdak kan ? Tapi please move on .. Sbb ya jak reason kita tok maseh hidup .. Go on with your life .. Jangan seksa dirik .. X bagus .. tauk x ? X bgs bersedeh terlalu lama ats kematian seseorg .. I think you know why kan ? :) gik pun, bkn eifa suruh lupakkn 'nya' .. trust me, ny sentiasa dalam hati ktk org .. :)

One last thing .. Dekatkan diri ktk org ngan Tuhan, and manusia2 di sekeliling ktk org .. Supaya ktk org xrasa lonely .. Supaya ktk org dpt rasa 'life' .. Supaya ktk org dpt trmk kenyataan .. :) Believe me, it will work if you do it with sincere ..

Okay now .. That is all for now .. About the situation ya, xda kaitan dgn yg hidup atau yang sudah tiada .. :) Assalamualaikum ..

Page 249 of 366 : Random ;]

Assalamualaikum .. 

I just feel like writing .. That's all ;D Currently listening to Istikarah Cinta by Sigma .. Well, excuse me .. Just heard it .. First time :) Oh ya bloggy .. I think my readers want to know right ? Yes, about today la .. Nervous huh ? Haha .. School was okay .. Just a bit tiring after me and Shaey go around the school to collect the donation for the orang utan .. Our school got adopt an orang utan bah .. Bla bla bla .. Ya ya ya .. Whatever .. Now2, after that .. Feel kinda happy after we get the permission to make our dream come true ! Just that, I don't know the reason why we should invite him too .. Hmm .. If Allah's will .. We can invite him for some reason .. Should I ask him first or should I ask the teacher first ? Now I'm blur .. Haha ..

Sorry if I've laugh too much .. I think I am really tension with the promises .. The camps .. The what-so-ever .. Huhh .. And today is the day where I WILL feels bad almost at ALL time .. This will happen to me few times in a year .. Something like that .. I will cry to feel better .. And at this day, I will start to feel that I really miss someone .. That someone could be anyone .. But today, I started to feel that I really that boy .. That caring boy .. That boy that never tired of me .. That boy that will listen to all what I said .. That boy I really love to talk too .. That boy I love because of Allah .. :') Let's just keep it a secret of who is really the boy I mention in this entry .. May our relationship will always be bless .. InsyaAllah .. Eyy .. Please don't be too emotional here .. Haha .. I don't want too .. Ya Allah, I really miss him .. A BUNCH !

Now, Eifa .. Please focus on your aim .. His aim .. Both of you .. OMG ! This song !! Very sentimental punya song .. Have to go now .. Want to meet Allah first, then go jalan2 with my family .. Assalamualaikum .. *Btw, I hope he can make my day :)

Page 245 of 366 : September ??

Assalamualaikum ..

So, It is the beginning of September ? Alhamdulillah, I've lived for 243 days in the year 2012 .. Times really RUN huh ? No more crawling .. Haha .. hey .. Actually .. I don't really know what I wanted to talk about here .. Just feels like writing something on this very HUMBLE blog .. Haha .. What a day yesterday .. Fuhhh ! Seriously, I'm not like the real me .. But when I'm with him, it is really me in the reality yesterday .. If you get what I mean .. Please don't try to understand it ..

You know what, bloggy ? I really thinks he MIGHT be falling for one of my girls .. She's cute & beautiful .. Can't denied that .. I know he admiring someone .. But I don't know who is that someone .. He never tell me whenever I ask him ... Boys easily gets bored with something .. Many of them admit that .. And that's really the truth .. Hmm .. What do you think ? Maybe I've said this sentence like thousands times .. But seriously, I meant it .. I really don't want to lose him .. I really don't want to feel any loss rite now .. At least for now .. I've lost Mr. M .. Hmm .. Oh bloggy ! Why SOMETIMES, love become the hardest thing to deal with ? I really don't want to deal with this lousy matter NOW .. But this thing effect me, my life .. How to settle this ? I know it's hard for him .. To always treat me .. Accompany me .. To feel what I feel .. But I do want to feel appreciated .. At least for ONCE .. Doesn't mean that he don't appreciate me all this time .. Oh bloggy ! I bet my readers will never understand me because I don't know how to put all this thing in words .. Sorry readers ..

Oh ya ! Talking about September .. For me, it is just a month .. Just like other month .. Like nothing special will happen .. FOR ME .. For others ? I really don't know and I don't want to know .. He is busy enough to make me lonely sometimes .. Well, I know it is his responsibilities .. No worries k, mon sier ? :) Just hope that, the camp that me, my girls and Mr. M will be conduct well enough .. HOPEFULLY .. He haven't text me YET since this evening .. I think I know what this mean .. :) Hey bloggy .. What do you think if I didn't contact him for days .. or weeks ? Will he feel a bit empty ? Will he look for me ? I don't really know but I think he will not .. If he's diff from the other guys I've met, alhamdulillah .. :)

I think that is all .. My back hurt already .. Typing for too long .. Have to continue with certain matters .. Assalamualaikum ^^