Page 245 of 366 : September ??

Assalamualaikum ..

So, It is the beginning of September ? Alhamdulillah, I've lived for 243 days in the year 2012 .. Times really RUN huh ? No more crawling .. Haha .. hey .. Actually .. I don't really know what I wanted to talk about here .. Just feels like writing something on this very HUMBLE blog .. Haha .. What a day yesterday .. Fuhhh ! Seriously, I'm not like the real me .. But when I'm with him, it is really me in the reality yesterday .. If you get what I mean .. Please don't try to understand it ..

You know what, bloggy ? I really thinks he MIGHT be falling for one of my girls .. She's cute & beautiful .. Can't denied that .. I know he admiring someone .. But I don't know who is that someone .. He never tell me whenever I ask him ... Boys easily gets bored with something .. Many of them admit that .. And that's really the truth .. Hmm .. What do you think ? Maybe I've said this sentence like thousands times .. But seriously, I meant it .. I really don't want to lose him .. I really don't want to feel any loss rite now .. At least for now .. I've lost Mr. M .. Hmm .. Oh bloggy ! Why SOMETIMES, love become the hardest thing to deal with ? I really don't want to deal with this lousy matter NOW .. But this thing effect me, my life .. How to settle this ? I know it's hard for him .. To always treat me .. Accompany me .. To feel what I feel .. But I do want to feel appreciated .. At least for ONCE .. Doesn't mean that he don't appreciate me all this time .. Oh bloggy ! I bet my readers will never understand me because I don't know how to put all this thing in words .. Sorry readers ..

Oh ya ! Talking about September .. For me, it is just a month .. Just like other month .. Like nothing special will happen .. FOR ME .. For others ? I really don't know and I don't want to know .. He is busy enough to make me lonely sometimes .. Well, I know it is his responsibilities .. No worries k, mon sier ? :) Just hope that, the camp that me, my girls and Mr. M will be conduct well enough .. HOPEFULLY .. He haven't text me YET since this evening .. I think I know what this mean .. :) Hey bloggy .. What do you think if I didn't contact him for days .. or weeks ? Will he feel a bit empty ? Will he look for me ? I don't really know but I think he will not .. If he's diff from the other guys I've met, alhamdulillah .. :)

I think that is all .. My back hurt already .. Typing for too long .. Have to continue with certain matters .. Assalamualaikum ^^