So damn TRUE !

Salam .. 
Hey ! Hmm .. I need to post something .. Seriously ! I FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM ! okay2 .. his name is .. let's just call him .. Mr.T .. the name have it's own meaning k ? let me just tell you k .. I knew him from Facebook .. I dun know where he find me on Facebook .. maybe I posted some of my pictures .. I mean my photography thing .. hehe .. ya la .. he ask me if I am a photographer or not .. Seriously ! I thought he's Chinese .. But true lah .. haha .. He's mixed :) We have the same interest ! PHOTOGRAPHY LOVERS ! hehe .. But he's using Nikon .. And me ? Canon of course .. Okay2 .. Let's get to the real story here .. When I've got so bored with Facebook, I move to Twitter ! As I'm scrolling down the page, suddenly, my eyes catch something ! Mr.T tweeting me but I ignored it .. So, I tweet him back .. 


Some cool story we talked about (for me la) .. But who cares ? Haha .. we talk, talk and talk .. ey2 no3 ! we tweet, tweet and tweet .. Haha .. And suddenly .. he ask me something very personal .. 'Do u like me ?' so DAMN personal .. haha .. (why I always laughing!!!) haha .. he do know that I kinda like him .. as FRIENDS k .. but you know kan bloggy, I'm a kind of girl that easily fall in love especially with guys wearing specs ? hehe .. I bet you already know that .. Hmm ... I tweeted him every time I've get bored or needing some accompany .. Hehe .. But .. After he talked about 'that' matter, it's seems like .. we're .. makin jaoh .. haha .. suddenly I wrote in Malay .. 


And now, I really don't know what to think .. What to do .. And what to talk about .. Hmm .. Am I fall in love with Mr.T ? haha .. so DAMN true ! wooopppsss !! no la .. I still dun know YET .. I'm just an ordinary girl and him ? such an awesome guy ! so TRUE ! STOOPP !!! A red light suddenly appear from nowhere .. haha .. I have to stop talking and berleter now .. haha .. >.<


*why I feel like I'm getting close to Paris ? The city of love .. The most romantic place .. whatever .. as long as I love PARIS ! it's enough ! :D

I've got some inspirations :)

Salam ..
Hello there, my dear bloggy .. It's 12a.m .. Morning ! I've done reading some of Twitter Boy's entries .. Hmm .. A very interesting stories he have there .. I've got some points for my story .. Let it be the coolest thing to read .. :) But still .. I have to improve my English is so tunggang terbalik .. His blog is quite inspiring .. *hey, dun be mad k ... you give me inspiration bh .. PROUD lah .. hehe .. Lets start to write the first chapter first .. Give me a suitable situation .. Yes ! It's night and she was looking at the moon .. Let start it .. Pray for me ..


Chapter 1

Seperti biasa, Azreen berada di tempat kesukaannya. Di atas bukit. Sambil melihat ke arah bulan dan bintang yang sentiasa menemaninya kala malam menjelma. "Nazmi, kenapa awak pergi jauh dari saya? Saya rindukan awak." Dia bercakap sendirian. Tiba-tiba, air matanya jatuh. Satu per satu. Terlalu pahit kenangan itu jika ingin diingati kembali. "Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hatiku untuk menempuhi semua ini." Semuanya bermula pada saat kali pertama Azreen bertemu dengan Nazmi. Kenangan yang sentiasa berada di dalam ingatan Azreen.

Setahun yang lalu....

Azreen duduk termenung di kerusi taman rumahnya. Menunggu Tyra, sahabat baiknya. 

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DAMN ! I've got no idea ! And .. Huh .. I've dun think I can write a good story .. That people would love to read .. Huhuhuhuhu !!! I NEED A DOCTOR HERE ! SERIOUSLY ! huhuhu .. Sorry to say this .. I given up .. HUH ! :'(

Not him .. :)

Salam .. 
Hey bloggy .. Thank you so much ! I love you ! Love Love LOVE ! Hehehe .. you know what, dear ? Hmm .. He read you and send me this on ym ..

"sorry..my fault for not understand ur feelings..reading ur blog feels like i'm the one who is the traitor..hmm..that was not my last goodblye..it will be when i breath out my last breath..sorry dear :)"

Hmm ..  When I read this, I'm totally SPEECHLESS ! I'm just sit in front of the lappy without saying a thing .. Want to know what I reply him ?

"hmm .. it's okay .. tq for making me smile again .. although it is a fake one .. I shouldn't scold you .. me and you are just friends .. not more than that .. I shouldn't scold you .. I'm sorry too, dear :)"

Hmm .. All I want to say is THANK YOU, DEAR ! Alhamdulillah .. May God bless him .. I hope he understand me now .. I HOPE SO .. Bloggy, I don't know what to write la .. Speechless already .. :) Later I update you again k ? There's something I must tell you .. Hehe .. Wait la k .. :) Bye, dear .. LOVE YOU ! 

I'm so sorry ..

Salam ...


Now ? It's M*** turn .. hmm .. I really mad at him just now .. And he just left me just like that .. Just like the other guys that have left me .. It is wrong for me to mad at him ? Am I the wrong one ? Why always I'm the wrong one ? Why don't M*** understand me ? He know that S**** left me and I still feeling the pain .. Why he don't understand that I really need him ? Why ? Now, he left me without saying much .. When he suddenly go offline, I'm feeling so down .. And I just want to cry ! Huh ! They left me .. One by one .. And me ? I'm left behind .. Alone ! And now, I have no one ! Why don't one of them understand me ? Why not ? And now I'm start to feel I'm losing M*** .. I'll just cry .. Only tears can accompany me .. O Allah ! I feel like I'm dying without any of them beside me .. Now, I have no strength .. To live on .. M***, why can't you understand me ? Why ? Is it wrong for me to mad at you ? Is it ? If yes, I'll just continue to give FAKE smiles to you EVERY SINGLE DAY .. M***, if you're reading this, I just want you to understand me .. Only once ! Please, dear ! Are you leaving me alone ? I better DIE ! M***, please understand me this time .. I begging you ! Please ! You left me without saying much .. Is that your last Goodbye ? Is it ? Kalau salah ktk pun, xkan trs xmok chat ? FINE ! Do what you want, M*** ! But only one thing I want you to do .. PLEASE UNDERSTAND ME THIS TIME ! UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION, PLEASE ! Only that I ask from you .. 


O Allah, I don't want to delete him .. He's the last person I have .. THE LAST ONE ... I DON'T WANT TO LOSE YOU,M*** .. PLEASE, DEAR ?

They're regret it and me too .. :')

Salam .. 


Hmm ... I want to talk about something was quite important in life .. LOVE .. Know what ? I hear my friend's problem just now and I feel most girls felt the same including me .. Her 'boyfriend' cheat her .. CRUEL right ? But what can I do ? She too far away for me to go to her and calm her down .. Bloggy, most of my friend's post on facebook is about their feelings .. They felt HURT .. Because of boys .. Is this the end of the world ? Hmm .. I felt the same too ! SO HURT ! I feel like I want to jump off a tree .. Haha .. Kidding la .. But it's true .. Love can make people happy and sad at the same time .. Love hurts but why people keep searching for them ? A question that have no answer .. CRUEL ou ! Bloggy, how do you feel if someone that you love so much break your heart ? Hmm .. Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hati mereka .. Girls, don't worry keyh .. Love's maybe something HURTS you but you MUST live with it .. You must always think positive okay ! I love all of you, girlFRIENDS *but I'm not LESBIAN k.. And I don't want the people I love to be hurt .. NOT ! EVEN ANY OF YOU .. dear girls .. take care of your heart k .. :)

Hmm .. Let write something ..

It's already 1.17 a.m. Hmm .. What should I do ou ? Sis left me with no choice .. Hmm .. I don't know if I'm doing the right thing here .. Pa mok jadi, jadi la .. I DON'T CARE dh .. It's looks like I'll be hurt again .. Hmm ... Ya Allah .. See ? I've got nothing to talk about .. I was about to write a story about Ziqqy .. He is my memory .. That I don't want to forget .. Actually, it's not about him la ! Xda kaitan pun .. I want to write about a guy named Ziqqy .. And the girl .. Hmm ... I still can't get a name for a girl .. It's just a simple story .. Maybe every month or week, I will update the story .. Let's make this the title .. Love from Paris .. You know I love Paris right ? And I was hoping to go there .. HEY!! Nothing's impossible k .. I will achieve my dream .. Someday .. Pray for me k .. InsyaAllah .. Hmm .. If only I can go to Paris .. Hmm .. I think I've got a sypnosis for this story .. Hmm .. But a little2 only lorr .. Wait aa ..

Title : Love from Paris

Writer : Nureifa Lofa

A story about a girl from Malaysia. A simple girl with a big dream. Her dream is going to Paris. To her, Paris is the city of love and she was hoping that she will found her true love there. At last, her dream came true when her daddy give ask her to continue her study at Paris. She was really happy and agreed. Many challenges she have to go through to go to Paris. Find out the story about her journey to find her 'true love' in Paris. Stay tune. :)

Hmm .. How's thats sound like ? Okay kan ? Hmm .. Now, I have to perah my brain ou .. Hhehe .. It's okay ... Asalkan hati tok dpt juak rsa happy kejap .. Wlpn untuk SEKEJAP .. Jum kta berkhayal and making stories .. Pergi jauh2 dri realiti yang byk cabaran .. drpd kita skit di alm realiti, bgs kita masuk dunia penulisan lok .. Dunia Paris .. Supaya kita dpt pergi jauh dri mslh dunia japp .. KEJAPPP JAKKK .. STAY TUNE :D

O Allah ! What I've done ?

Salam, bloggy ..

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing .. I'm pity of him .. But .. Hmm .. I really hope that he'll read this .. Ya Allah .. I think I had broken his heart .. But, am I going to let him to hurt me again ? I'm scared of getting hurt again ! So scared .. Ya Allah .. Only you know what I'm feeling right now .. I don't want to lose him ! I don't want to ! Ya Allah .. Only tears can describe everything .. I don't know what to do .. I'm feel so guilty .. But .. I don't know ! I just want to cry ! Now, I'm losing him .. I lost everything ! But I do this for some reason ! Ya Allah, am I doing the right thing ? He can't even promise me even a thing .. He just don't want to lose me .. I'm blurr ! I just want to cry .. I can't even think my days without him .. Starting from now .. Why must things goes like this ? Ada abg ka kwn ka .. sama jak .. lps gaduh, suma hlg .. xmok kwn gik dh .. he's the second person asking back for me .. huh ! Ya ALLAH ! What must I do ? Am I going to let him be happy by accpeting his request and let my heart to be hurt again ? Am I too selfish ? When I make a decision for me, I'll have to think twice when things like this happens .. Ya ALLAH ! YA ALLAH ! :'( I will just cry .. I WILL !!

Weirdo !

Hey bloggy !

I've got some emergency here ! Hmm .. Not really lah ! hahah .. Hmm .. **** said, he DID NOT block me on Facebook .. But I can't view his profile using 2 out of 4 of my Facebook .. Weird isn't ? huhuh .. I haven't check my secret account yet .. But I don't think I can't view his profile .. Hmm .. Totally weird ! Both of our heads are full of question mark ! Dear, what happen to us ? Hmm .. But, I thank Allah for still giving me to contact him .. I called him tadik ! yeah .. Just a short call .. ****2, dear ! hahahah .. thanx k .. but please don't say that 'word' again .. no need for me to mention it .. you know that 'word' .. hehhe .. you know what dear ? I'm still NOT SATISFIED and CURIOUS about this matter .. Please do something ! Okay ? :))

I'm deleting them .. ONE BY ONE ..

Salam ..

Hey, bloggy .. I want to share something with you .. I hope you're don't mind .. :') Hmm .. Where to start ? Hmm .. Let me introduce you to a guy that always webcam with me and chat with me on ym, facebook and sometimes, on skype .. Actually, I don't know him when I started studying at Lopeng .. You want to know how I know him ? Let me tell you first .. I met him when I was in Form 1 .. He send me letters and he was in Form 3 .. It was already at the end of the year at that time .. So, I didn't get to know him closer .. Too bad .. Then, when I'm in Form 2 and he's in Form 4, we just keep silent .. Both of us .. When it comes to this year, we started to get even closer when he's broke up with his girl .. This is when I know him better and closer .. Many things I know about him .. He was there when I'm sad .. He will be right beside me when I need him ... But, everything change yesterday .. I'm losing them one by one .. At first, F****, then, S*****, next, F***** and now, N******* .. Hmm .. I'm deleting them away from my life .. ONE BY ONE .. It's hurts a lot ! Hmm .. But I willing to do so just to make sure they're happy .. Their happiness is my happiness .. I don't care if I'm hurts as long as they're happy .. :') It's hurt but what I can do ? NOTHING !

Greyson Chance - Waiting Outside The Lines

I love this song so much .. <3 I'm waiting .. :')

Love from Paris .. :')

This is my second short story .. :') This is my ORIGINAL short story .. Enjoy ! :')

‘Why are you doing this to me? I have given my heart to you! Why, Arynn?’

‘I’m sorry, Iky. But I think this is the best for the both of us,’

‘Only for you, not me! I really can’t let you go,honey,’ he argued.

‘Stop calling me that! You have to let me go,’ she has already lose her patience.

Arynn broke into tears as she ran from Iky but he did not understand. He really loved Arynn. What goes wrong ?

‘I’m sorry, sweetheart. I have to let you go. I just want you to be safe. I’m sorry,’ she ran as fast as she could and then she’s stopped suddenly when she was at the garden. It was raining. But she was still sitting on a bench, crying. ‘My love is not written for you, Iky’

She had decided to go to Paris. She want to forget Iky although she really loved him.

* * * * * * *

‘Welcome to Paris. We will arrive at the airport in a few minutes. Please sit back and fasten your seatbelt.’ a stewardess made an annoucement. Arynn was scared but she knew she had made the right decision.

As she walked out the airport, a guy bumped into her. That guy seemed to be in a hurry. He quickly help Arynn picked up her things and walked into the airport. As she walked, she felt like there was something on the floor. She picked it up and it was a wallet and it belonged to the guy that bumped into her a few seconds ago. She put it in her handbag and got into a taxi.

She reached her house around 6p.m. The house was a gift from her parents because she wanted to continue her studies in Paris. She decided to take a walk. She still remember her ex-boyfriend. She totally missed him very much.

‘The air is quite cold.’ She told herself. Then, she saw a coffeehouse. She went straight into the coffeehouse because it was really cold outside. It would be pretty nice to have a hot chocolate.

Arynn was shocked when she heard the owner of the coffeehouse shouted at one of the customers. It was the guy at the airport. According to the owner, he didn’t have money to pay for his drink. Arynn quickly paid for him and asked him to come over to her house on that evening.

The guy agreed. He looked smart and handsome that night. She invited him to had a dinner with her. She asked him what had happen at the coffeehouse. He told her that when he wanted to pay for his drinks, he couldn’t find his wallet. Arynn quickly go into her room and take the wallet.

‘Thank you for the treat just now.’

‘You’re welcome, Mr...’

‘Don’t call me Mr. Just call me Tristan.’

‘Your welcome, Tristan. I’m Arynn. I’m from Malaysia.’

‘Oh. It’s great to meet you, Arynn’

‘My pleasure.’

They finished their food and both of them are sitting in front of the television. Arynn started to ask many things about Paris.

‘Hey, that it easy. I’ll always be there if you need to know anything about Paris.’ They talked until midnight.

‘I think I should go now. I’ll take you out tomorrow.’ And then he gave her a flying kiss. She was stuttering when she said good night to Tristan.

* * * * * * *

It was a great day for Tristan and Arynn. Tristan took her around the town. She was very happy. Tristan promised her that he would bring her to a special place that evening. She could hardly wait for that evening. That evening, the truth had revealed.

‘Arynn, I will just go straight to the point. I love you.’

‘Oh,Tristan.’ Arynn suddenly cried.

‘Why were you crying, Arynn? Is there anything wrong with that?’

‘No, Tristan. I hate that word very much. That word broke Iky and my relationship. I miss him very much. That’s why I’m here. To forget him.’ Arynn explained.

Tristan lost his words.’What should I do?’ he asked himself.

‘Tristan, I know you really meant it but I think I’m not the one for you. I don’t want to break anyone’s heart anymore. You will regret it. Believe me.’ She was still crying when she finished her words. She then left Tristan at the hotel. ‘I’m sorry, Tristan. I don’t want the same thing to happen again.’

* * * * * * *

‘Hello, can I speak to Isabelle? It’s Arynn, her friend.’ She decided to call her best friend. She wanted to asked her opinion about Tristan.

‘What?! How could you do that? I know,Arynn. You want to forget Iky, right? So, accept Tristan. Besides, he was so kind to you. Accept him if you want to forget Iky. Tristan is a great guy. You deserve him.’ Isabelle scold her.

‘Should I? I think I also fall in love in him. Isabelle, thanks for waking me up from the dream that I was scared the most. I must find Tristan. Ask for forgiveness. Say that I love him. Thanks, dear.’

* * * * * * *

She hurried back and plans to meet Tristan at a place that Tristan liked the most, the Eiffel Tower. It was raining again. When she arrived there, she saw Tristan was sitting on the bench. His face looked so pallid. She quickly approached him.

‘I know I couldn’t get a better guy other than you. You brighten up my day with your love. You brighten up my night just like the stars and moon shines the night. Tristan, I love you.’

‘Thank you, Arynn. I know my love was just for you. I promise you that I’ll not hurt you. Thank you,honey.’

Suddenly, it was raining. He kissed her on her lips and hugged her. She smiles happily.

Her story :')

Kata orang, ‘Hidup umpama aiskrim, nikmatilah ia sebelum cair.’ Walau sesukar manapun dugaan yang menimpa, kita harus tabah menghadapinya. Kadangkala Tuhan menguji manusia dengan pelbagai jenis dugaan namun apa yang lebih penting adalah cara kita menerima dan redha dengan ketentuan-Nya.

Begitulah kehidupan Rina, seorang gadis muda yang berumur 16 tahun, tabah menghadapi hari-hari yang mendatang walaupun pada hakikatnya dia menghadapi “rinal failure” ataupun penyakit buah pinggang yang gagal berfungsi.

Seperti insan lain, Rina juga pernah berputus-asa untuk meneruskan hidupnya, hidup yang penuh dengan kesakitan. Namun begitu, kehadiran seorang Adam kurniaan Tuhan telah mengembalikan semangatnya yang telah hilang. Adam yang bernama Haziq merupakan seorang pelajar yang baru berpindah dari Australia. Haziq dan Rina telah ditakdirkan bertemu di dalam kelas dan sekolah yang sama. Rina yang sering kali menangis kesakitan di dalam kelas telah menarik perhatian Haziq untuk mendekatinya. Keprihatinan yang ditunjukkan Haziq membuatkan hati Rina tergerak untuk berkongsi kisah hidupnya dengan Haziq.

Keredupan pandangan mata Rina dan kesungguhannya untuk mendekati dan mendalami Islam telah membuat keinginan Haziq untuk mengenali gadis kecil molek itu semakin kuat. Segala kesakitan dan kesedihan Rina turut dirasainya. Rina yang dulunya berhenti menjalani rawatan kimoterapinya kini menyambung kembali rawatan tersebut. Semua itu berkat dorongan Haziq dan keluarganya.

Setelah diaturkan oleh Haziq, Rina telah bertemu dengan seorang mualaf yang kini telah menjadi seorang ustazah yang begitu disegani. Rina mengukuhkan lagi pengetahuannya tentang Islam dan kini Rina lebih ceria dan gembira.

Pada suatu hari, Haziq telah mengambil cuti dan kembali ke Australia. “Rina, jaga diri baik-baik. Teruskan hidup dan jika ada umur yang panjang, boleh kita bertemu lagi,” pesan Haziq kepada Rina. Rina redha dengan pemergian Haziq dengan tenang dan sejak hari itu, dia sentiasa mengharapkan kepulangan Haziq. Beberapa minggu selepas pemergian Haziq, Rina menerima berita gembira dari hospital. Setelah lebih 2 tahun menunggu penderma buah pinggang, kini Rina sudah boleh menjalani pembedahan penukaran buah pinggang.

Dua bulan kemudian, Rina sudah mampu mengikuti aktiviti-aktiviti lasak seperti insan lain. Matanya yang dulu redup kini telah kembali bersinar. Terima kasih kepada “Nur” yang sentiasa menemaninya selama ini. Namun, pemergian Haziq ke Australia rupa-rupanya untuk meninggalkan Rina buat selama-lamanya. Haziq menghidapi tumor otak tahap akhir dan setalah menyedari ajalnya semakin hampir, dia telah pergi melarikan diri ke Australia. Hasrat akhirnya untuk menderma buah pinggangnya kepada Rina telah tercapai. Rina tabah menerima pemergian Haziq kerana sesungguhnya apa yang Tuhan pinjamkan kepada kita harus kembali kepada-Nya.

* this is my dear larynn wrote .. :') it's kinda sad .. so, I decided to post it .. :')

Pertemuan Itu~

Here it goes .. This is the Malay story .. :') Enjoy !

"Betapa indahnya ciptaan Allah ini." Azifa bercakap sendirian ketika memandang ke arah pantai. Angin bertiup lembut membuatkan Azifa berasa sungguh tenang. Teringat kembali kenangannya bersama Hafiz, suaminya yang amat dirinduinya. Berputar kembali saat dia bertemu dengan Hafiz, saat yang tidak mungkin dapat dilupakan sepanjang hayatnya.

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'Alamak ! Hujanlah pulak. Lupa nak bawa payung sekali.'

Sebaik sahaja dia melangkah keluar dari kedai buku itu, tiba-tiba hujan turun. Azifa buntu memikirkan bagaiman hendak balik ke rumah. Dia cuba menahan teksi tetapi nasibnya kurang baik. Azifa terus meredah hujan kerana bimbang terlewat sampai ke rumahnya. Azifa merasakan ada orang berdiri di sebelahnya. Dia terus berpaling ke arah lelaki yang tiba-tiba memayungi dirinya. Lelaki itu tersenyum memandang Azifa.

'Cantiknya budak ni,' katanya dalam hati.

"Terima kasih kerana sudi berkongsi payung dengan saya," ucap Azifa, tersenyum.

"Sama-sama. Saya Hafiz," lelaki tersebut memperkenalkan diri.

"Saya Azifa. Salam perkenalan." Bermulalah sebuah persahabatan antara Azifa dengan Hafiz.

Selepas pertemuan itu, Hafiz sering keluar dan berjumpa dengan Azifa. Pada suatu pagi, Hafiz mengajak Azifa bersarapan di restoran kegemaran mereka. Kebetulan, Azifa tidak mempunyai apa-apa aktiviti. Setibanya di restoran itu, sebaik sahaja pelayan mengambil pesanan mereka, Hafiz terus memulakan rancangannya.

"Azifa, sebenarnya saya ingin memberitahu awak sesuatu. Saya mendapat tawaran belajar ke luar negara dalm jurusan kedoktoran. Saya akn bertolak dalam beberapa hari lagi. Sebelum saya pergi, saya ingin memberitahu awak tentang kita. Sejak pertama kali kita bertemu, hati saya dah pun terpikat melihat awak. Saya cuba menafikan perasaan ini tetapi gagal. Azifa, sudikah awak menjadi teman hidup saya ?" Azifa terdiam. Beberapa saat berlalu, Azifa tersenyum memandang Hafiz dan bersetuju menjadi teman hidup Hafiz.

Berlangsunglah majlis pertunangan antara Azifa dengan Hafiz. Mereka akan melangsungkan perkahwinan mereka selepas Hafiz tamat belajar. Hafiz bertolak ke lapangan terbang bertemankan keluarganya dan Azifa. Azifa menangis kerana terpaksa berpisah dengan Hafiz.

"Azifa, tunggu Hafiz balik ye. Jangan risaukan Hafiz, Azifa jaga diri baik-baik. Hafiz sayang Azifa!" kata-kata yang diucapkan Hafiz semasa ingin masuk ke balai perlepasan masih terngiang-ngiang di telinga Azifa. Bermulalah kehidupan Azifa tanpe bertemankan Hafiz, tunangnya yang amat disayanginya.

5 tahun kemudian.....

"Assalamualaikum. Boleh saya cakap dengan Azifa?"

"Saya Azifa. Awak siapa?"

"Sayang, tak ingat lagi suara ni? Ini Hafiz,"

Azifa terus tersenyum dan mengucap syukur kepada Allah kerana Hafiz masih lagi ingat akan dirinya. Hafiz telah selamat sampai di Lapangan Terbang Kuala Lumpur dan dalam perjalanan balik ke rumahnya. Beberapa minggu selepas kepulangan Hafiz dari UK, berlangsunglah perkahwinan antara Hafiz dengan Azifa. Majlis yang begitu meriah itu juga disambut oleh rakan-rakan Hafiz dari UK.

* * * * *

"Sayang, abang akan pergi ke Palestin dalam masa beberapa hari lagi. Abang ditugaskan untuk merawat penduduk di sana. Syang nak ikut ?" Azifa hanya menggelegkan kepala. Dia faham akan tugas suaminya yang bekerja sebagai seorang doktor.

Hari itu pun tiba. "Jaga diri baik-baik ya, sayang. Tunggu abang balik dalam masa seminggu ni." Ketika itu, Azifa sedang sarat mengandung anak pertama mereka. Kepergian Hafiz ke Palestin diiringi tangisan Azifa. "Abang jaga diri ya." Hafiz mengucup pipi isterinya yang amat disayanginya. Sayu hatinya tika meilaht isterinya yang terpaksa ditinggalkan.

* * * * *

Azifa berasa sungguh gembira. Hafiz akan balik ke Malaysia pada pagi itu. Azifa tidak sabar untuk berjumpa dengan Hafiz. Berita yang gembira sedang menanti untuk dikhabarkan. Azifa pun menyiapkan hidangan yang istimewa untuk Hafiz. Penerbangan dari Palestin ke Kuala Lumpur mengambil masa lebih kurang 8 jam. Azifa pun menanti dengan penuh sabar kepulangan suaminya yang tercinta.

* * * * *

Azifa terpaku selepas mendengar berita di televisyen. Kapal terbang yang dinaiki oleh Hafiz telah terhempas dan sebilangan besar daripada penumpang maut di tempat kejadian. Azifa merasakan dunianya gelap gelita. Azifa terus menangis. Dia tidak dapt menerima hakikat bahawa Hafiz kini telah meninggalkan dia bersama bayi yang dikandungnya. Dia menafikan bahawa Hafiz telah meninggalkan dia.

Selepas kejadian itu, lahirlah seorang bayi yang amat comel. Azifa menyucapkan syukur kepada Allah kerana pembedahan itu berjalan lancar. Seorang bayi lelaki yang iras-iras Hafiz. Sehingga kini, hati Azifa masih kuat mengatakan bahawa Hafiz masih lagi hidup walaupun sudah dua bulan kejadian itu berlaku. Dia menamakan anaknya Muhammad Syahmi. Seperti yang diingini Hafiz jika dia melahirkan seorang bayi lelaki. Syahmi pun membesar tanpa kasih sayang seorang ayah kerana Azifa tida mahu berkahwin lagi walaupun ramai yang masuk meminang.

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"Ibu, Syahmi berjaya terbangkan layang-layang tadi. Ada seorang pak cik yang tolong," Azifa tersedar dari lamunannya.

"Mana pak cik tu? Syahmi ada ucap terima kasih tak?"

"Ada, Ibu. Pak cik tu tengah pegangkan layang-layang Syahmi," kata Syahmi sambil menunjuk ke suatu arah.

Azifa pun memalingkan mukanya ke arah itu dan terkejut melihat lelaki tersebut. Lelaki tersebut ialah Hafiz, suaminya yang hilang itu. Azifa mengambil keputusan untuk menegur lelaki tersebut untuk memastikan bahawa itu adalah Hafiz.

"Assalamualaikum, encik," Azifa memberi salam kepada lelaki tersebut.

"Wa'alaikummusalam," Sebaik sahaja lelaki tersebut berpaling, Azifa menggosok-gosok matanya berulang kali kerana tidak percaya dengan apa yang dilihatnya.

"Hafiz?" tanya Azifa. "Azifa?"

"Adakah saya bermimpi? Saya tidak percaya," Azifa terus memeluk Hafiz sambil air matanya jatuh. Air mata kegembiraan.

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Azifa dan Hafiz bertemu kembali kerana Allah. Hafiz menceritakan bagaimana dia boleh terselamat. Azifa bersyukur kerana Hafiz kini kembali. Anaknya, Syahmi begitu gembira selepas mendapat tahu bahawa kini dia mempunyai seorang ayah. Syahmi tidak lagi bersedih kerana rindukan ayahnya. "Cinta Hafiz hanya tertulis untuk Azifa." Azifa kini mengecapi kebahagiaannya bersama Hafiz dan anak-anaknya .

*This is my original story .. Xda kaitan dengan yang hidup ataupun dah meninggal.. TQ ! <3

I know you are a strong girl ..

Salam ..

A girl with a life that makes her want to cry always .. Makes her want to run away from everything .. She just want a guy that can guide her to Allah .. That love her because of Allah .. Do you understand what is the love from Allah, bloggy ? Let me tell you .. A love from Allah means that .. A guy/girl love a guy/girl just because of Allah .. Their love make their love to Allah grew everyday .. A love that guide them to Allah .. That teach them to love Allah .. That make them closer to Allah every single day .. Do you know what bloggy ? She's used to be a strong girl before .. But then, she fall .. She's not strong enough to face her problems .. Well, it's about guys .. Hmm .. Maybe she love him so much but he seems like he doesn't care about her anymore .. Pity her right ? But his love has made her become stronger .. She's feels safe with his love .. Now she know how much Allah love her .. Do you want to hear a story that I write ? I will post it in the next entry .. I promise k .. But for now, only his love make her stronger and live .. She's the broken hearted girl .. She's become a broken hearted girl ONCE AGAIN .. :')

I don't know what should I do ..

Salam ..

It supposed to be a great holiday .. But ? My holiday starts with a bad things that make me feel hurt .. It's really hurt .. Hmm .. I don't know what to say here .. Bloggy, I hope you don't mind if I share my tears and sadness with you .. You know what, I feel like a half-alive girl .. Hehe .. But I think .. I can't do anything except one thing .. I will just go on with my life .. Even without a guy in my life .. I will just continue to give away the fake smile as I walk through my way of life .. But I think I hate guys already .. Oh please don't ! But I don't know why .. Maybe because of them .. Yup .. :') Oh Allah, thank you for giving me chance to know them .. And for giving me chance to love them and gain more experience .. The more I love them, the more I know them, the more I know what's is love to them .. They make me love them, but then .. They hate me .. Is this fair ? I think, these things can be discuss .. But past is past .. I must go on .. His love have give me strength .. Have give me the power of his love .. His love make me realise that I'm not good enough for him .. His love is not written for me .. Thank you for the memories .. Thank you, boy .. And thank you to Anna, Amy, Wanny, Sis Ninie .. See ? I'm sharing my problems with girls .. Not guys .. Thanks, girls .. I know you'll be there with me ... Right beside me .. I'm thinking about their feeling .. Without thinking about mine .. huh .. Why they hurt me ?

Thanx for everything !

Salam ..

A great day at SMK St.Columba, Miri .. I never thought that him will be there with me .. aiye~ I arrived late at school today .. Want to see my 'last-time-wearing-green' photo ? Yeah .. I know you want too .. Later I will upload it ok ? Just for you, my beloved bloggy .. Hmm .. My brother also there with me .. :D I think, only pictures can describe all that happens there .. ok2 ?

This is me and shaeiy when both of us get so crazy taking pictures together ..

And this is Samuel .. I don't know if he's still my stinky or not .. It's up to him .. I just miss him .. So much .. :')

I love this picture .. They were there with me ... Making our last memory .. Together .. Thank you ! Love you !

Personally, I love this picture .. so much ! This picture is taken by me .. With my dear Serin and Shaeiy .. Unfortunately, Amy and Michelle is not with us .. Making the last memory with us .. :'( But, I can't do anything .. I just can smile ... :')

Let's cherish our memories together .. We're taking pictures at SMK St.Columba's stage .. It was a meaningful day .. Thank you for the moments ! Muah2 .. I think I should stop now .. No words can describe how happy I am today .. Thank you, Allah .. For giving me the opportunity to be with them before our holidays starts .. Thank you ! :))

A great day !

Salam ..

Where to start ? Ou yeah .. :) This 2 days make me so so exhausted ! Working with Aunty at Isuzu Miri Fest .. Tired but deep inside my heart, I'm so happy .. :) Think so .. See, I'm always smiling .. Hehhe .. :) Ok2 ... Lets story according to the day .. :) Saturday, we arrived late at the festival .. But the que suddenly become long .. I mean VERY LONG ! Seriously, I work non-stop .. NON-STOP ! Hahahahah .. Its really tiring .. REALLY ! Do u know, bloggy ? I've met Baki Zainal ! Ou .. He's so FUNNY !! Hehehe .. Kiut bh nya ! Heheh .. :D Want to see his picture ? Wait aaa ...

So ? Any comment ? Heheh ... He can speak three language .. Chinese, Malay and English of course .. Hahha .. We're the one arrived late, we're the one finished first .. How's that ? Weird kan ? But really .. Its tiring .. Next, We're go to Imperial Mall .. Want to know why ? Ask lah why .. :P Aunty treat us KFC ou ! Walauwei !!! Hehehe .. That night, I thought I have a chance to talk to him .. But .. Huhuh ... I slept earlier than I thought .. Haiiyyaaa ...Ok2 .. Enough for Saturday .. Let's talk Sunday !

Well, hello vivacious Sunday ! Today, as usual .. We're arrived late .. But finished earlier .. But thank Allah ! We finally finish packaging the Nasi Lemak .. The profit ? I have no words to describe it .. Just thank Allah .. :D Thank you, Allah .. :D After that, me, my sis and abg kiut go eat2 .. Heheh ... Then, I buy something that I really wanted ! You know I love cute things kan ? Want to see it, bloggy ? Wait ..

Cute kan ? Just like me .. Hehehehe .. Then, kmk org pg rah pentas cya .. Tgga org main game .. Calie bh ! Xberhenti2 tetak tek ... Kak ya, ny give away t-shirt and towels .. My aunty dpt towel + t-shirt bh .. Mistaken lalu xjwb soalan ya .. Nang mistaken lalu2 .. Hehehe .. My sis dpt towel .. And me ? I've got nothing .. But this ! Aiye2 .. I've got to talk to him pun already ok for me .. Besides, I've got this picture for memories ! Thank you ! Love Love LOVE you ! Muahahahahahaha .. xD

A day I'll never forget ..

Salam ...

Macam2 jadi hari tok .. Jum story2 !! Aher juak lah bgn pgi tek .. Mcm mls jak mok turun sklh .. Dah lah masih demam gik .. Flu gik ya ! Nasib x batok .. Mun x, dah complete dh package ya .. Hehehe .. Awal2 pagi dh ada Mr. K berdiri dpn ya .. Ou .. I love his sweet smile .. Love you, friend ! Heheh .. Nebes lah g sekolah tek .. Takut knk pggl .. Tpi bila dh start roll-call ya, xda org sruh pun org yang xhdir ya pg depan .. Hahaha .. Nang nasib lalu kan ? Kak ya, cdak pdh Ckgu Lau mok ROTAN kmk org .. Hmm .. Nang tkut lah DGR .. tpi, cun2 hari tok tek ada majlis restu ilmu untuk Form 5 & 6 upper .. Nasib lagik !!! Jadi, xda kelas Chemistry ngan ckgu Lau .. !! Nang bahagia asa eh .. Tpi .. ada tapi .. Tapi kan .. My beloved abg XJADI pergi sekolah .. Pagi2 dh bad mood bila ny mdh pgi tek .. Balit2 jak sekolah tek, trus bukak lappy .. Tpi lappy lambat lalu sampe TERTIDO org nggu .. Mistaken lalu bh ! Tido sampe b4 pkul 4 .. Bgn2 jak, trus pergi makan .. Tpi xhbs juak mknan ya .. Cian nasik ya .. SORRY !! Kak ya, terus bersiap mok pergi rmh nenek .. Dh janji mok tolong aunty dua hari tok .. Sabtu & Ahad .. So, I will be bz .. Xpa, kerja ya berbayar bh .. Heheh .. $.$ .. Makin teruk flu bila kupak bawang tek .. Bau bawang xbrpa diminat bh .. Besalah ya .. Kak ya, bila mok blit ya, smpt gik tapau ice cream !! Lamak dh xmam aiskrim la ... Mmmmm .. Sedap eyy !!! This is my favourite part ! Tdik kan, try2 lah kol Mr. F guna Digi .. lambat lalu ny mok angkat .. Bila dh nya angkat ya, tauk lah eifa yg ny dgr ckp eifa bila eifa suruh ny charge hp nya .. Ckp2 lah ngan Mr. F ya tek .. Miss his voice so much .. Sehari xsekolah, sehari2 ya juak lah xjmp nya .. Miss you ! *can't believe I say this!* hahaha .. Tmr, ny pergi rainforest .. Hmm .. Sayang lalu eifa xpergi .. Cdak semua yg pergi ya xalah2 crta psl bnda ya .. Mayb bukan rezeki ifa mok pergi .. Gik pun, my L' Dearers xpergi pun .. Xpa2 .. Btw, take care k, syg ! Heheh .. I think I have to stop now .. Bye, readers .. :D

I being left alone ... AGAIN

Salam ....

I feel like **** when I being left alone again .. Abg, udah adik pdh tek kan ? U just wanted to make me hurt once again ? This is the second time .. I don't if they will be the third time ... Dah lah adik sakit tok .. Adik tok terlalu kontrol abg ka ? Mmg betul lah apa sammy ckp .. I'm controlling people .. Maybe everyone will be happy if I'm go far away from their life .. I'm just a STUPID girl that love to control people .. That love to hurt them .. YOU'RE SO STUPID, GIRL ! REALLY ! SO MUCH ! Rsa mcm mok main hujan jak ... Duduk jak dalam hujan ya kn ? Best .. Alam memahami hati saya .. Thank you, Allah .. Now, I'm hearing a Nubhan's song .. Seadanya Aku .. Hmm .. I feel like **** .. Really .. huh .. Ya Allah, beratnya dugaan yang Kau berikan ini .. Hanya kepadamu aku berserah .. Berikanlah aku petunjuk, ya Allah .. Sesungguhnya, Engkau Maha Penyayang ... :') Tomorrow, I'll be schooling again .. Huh ! What a week ! :'( I just want to cry out loud and sit in the rain .. Can I ? :'(

I'm NOTHING to them ..

Salam ..

If I was given a chance to make my life even better, I would ask for forgiveness from Allah.. I've hurt so many person in my life .. My family .. My friends .. Hmm .. I was kind of useless right ? For what I come into their life ? Just to hurt them ? Forget it ! People hated me so much .. But they didn't know that I do love them .. What did I do wrong ? Every guys come into my life, I will smile happily to accept them as my friend .. But there will a girl that will come .. Interrupting .. Why life must be like that ? Why ? I know Allah love me .. And I'm supposed to love Him too .. Maybe I am nothing to them but I am SOMETHING to Allah .. I know that .. Thank you, Allah .. Please bless me .. I just need a time for myself .. Tonight, my brother called me through Skype .. I don't know if I have to accept or decline that call .. Hmm .. I miss him but I don't feel like to talk to someone on line .. Besides, I don't want him to be worried of me if he see my 'not in the mood' face .. I can't hardly smile .. How's that ? Huh .. Life is so COMPLICATED !

I miss my Mr ...

Salam ..

Seriously, I miss my Mr. F .. Last night, we're chatting .. Tgh chat2 ya, ttba jak ny off line .. Hmm ... Ne ktk ? Rindu kmk mok guro ngan ktk ko .. I miss you Mr.F .. Xsangka eifa blh nangis gara2 rindukan nya .. Hmm .. bena2 xda mood .. Hari tok xdpt jumpa nya .. Eifa x sklh ... Tpi mun eifa sklh pun, sma jak .. Wlpn dpt jmp Mr.F dgn Mr.K, Mr.Z xdpt .. Ny skit hari tok tek .. Tpi smpt gik on line .. Tdik ada ckp ngan Mr.Z kejap tek .. Ya Rabbi ! Lamak dh xckp ngan nya .. RIndu nak nenga sora nya .. Hmm .. Udah2 lah nangis ya, eifa ... Udah gik .. Lain jadi klk, fa .. Be strong k ? I miss you Mr.F .. So much ! Take care of him k, Mr.K .. You're my P.A bh .. heheh .. Love you, both ! :')

Wish you were here ..

Salam ...

eifa x tauk sapa yang selalu teman eifa bila eifa sedih or happy ... Calon first .. My beloved brother, Mohd. Zainurulzairie .. Hmm ... Ny suka buat ifa senyum .. Ketawa .. Happy .. Tpi eifa tok suka merajuk ngan nya ... Best bh ! hehhe *kalau ny bca tok, mesti ny geram ya .. heheh ... but seriously .. setiap kali eifa tok merajuk ngan nya, dgn automatiknya, eifa akn bad mood kalau xda berkontek ngan nya ... rasa mok buang jak hp ya ... rasa mcm mok deactive jak fb ya ... rsa mcm xmok gik on9 jak .. org2 kat fb pun mcm dh xlyn dh .. boring ! hmm .. calon kedua, my dear 'S' .. heheh .. xblh tauk nama nya .. secreto ! hehe ... ny suka buat ifa senyum sorang2 .. suka ngatik ifa ... suka buli ifa wlpn kdg2 kasar skit .. tpi apa2 jak lah ou ... aslkn ny happy .. ny suka gelar drik nya souless boy .. I bet you know him if you know him la .. hehehe ... and eifa ssh mok merajuk ngan nya tok .. sejak eifa rpt ngan abg, hbngn kmk duak renggang skit .... selalu terserempak jak kat sklh .. tgor pun xda .. jarang sms dh sbb eifa selalu bukak DiGi .. tpi best ckp ngan nya .. nya suka buat eifa happy .. and xsuka mun eifa skit or sedih .. tpi both cdak tok nang CARING .. tpi .. bila eifa rpt ngan abg, hbngn eifa ngan 'S' akan renggang .. kalau eifa rpt ngan 'S', eifa renggang dgn abg .. gne ya ou ??? hmm .. eifa mls mok pk yalah luahkan dkt ctok jak .. mun luahkn kat fb, xda org lalek ... org hanya akan tekan button LIKE ... ya jak ... I think I should DELETE my fb .. What do u think, bloggy ?? Should I ? I think I just need you in my life .. I don't want any PEOPLE in my life ... Huh ! What am I saying ? Huh .. I don't know lah bloggy .. Only u the place I know that will ALWAYS hear my thoughts .. My tears ... My laughter .. My everything ... You are my EVERYTHING !!! ONE DAY, PEOPLE WILL LEAVE ME ALONE .. THEY WILL .. BUT YOU'RE NOT ! Setiap bnda yang HIDUP pasti akan MATI kan ? hmm .. It's true ... Oklah, bloggy .. I think I should stop now .. I just want to tell you I LOVE YOU SO MUCH !!! hehehe ... Muahx !!!! xoxo ....