I don't know what should I do ..

Salam ..

It supposed to be a great holiday .. But ? My holiday starts with a bad things that make me feel hurt .. It's really hurt .. Hmm .. I don't know what to say here .. Bloggy, I hope you don't mind if I share my tears and sadness with you .. You know what, I feel like a half-alive girl .. Hehe .. But I think .. I can't do anything except one thing .. I will just go on with my life .. Even without a guy in my life .. I will just continue to give away the fake smile as I walk through my way of life .. But I think I hate guys already .. Oh please don't ! But I don't know why .. Maybe because of them .. Yup .. :') Oh Allah, thank you for giving me chance to know them .. And for giving me chance to love them and gain more experience .. The more I love them, the more I know them, the more I know what's is love to them .. They make me love them, but then .. They hate me .. Is this fair ? I think, these things can be discuss .. But past is past .. I must go on .. His love have give me strength .. Have give me the power of his love .. His love make me realise that I'm not good enough for him .. His love is not written for me .. Thank you for the memories .. Thank you, boy .. And thank you to Anna, Amy, Wanny, Sis Ninie .. See ? I'm sharing my problems with girls .. Not guys .. Thanks, girls .. I know you'll be there with me ... Right beside me .. I'm thinking about their feeling .. Without thinking about mine .. huh .. Why they hurt me ?