I'm NOTHING to them ..

Salam ..

If I was given a chance to make my life even better, I would ask for forgiveness from Allah.. I've hurt so many person in my life .. My family .. My friends .. Hmm .. I was kind of useless right ? For what I come into their life ? Just to hurt them ? Forget it ! People hated me so much .. But they didn't know that I do love them .. What did I do wrong ? Every guys come into my life, I will smile happily to accept them as my friend .. But there will a girl that will come .. Interrupting .. Why life must be like that ? Why ? I know Allah love me .. And I'm supposed to love Him too .. Maybe I am nothing to them but I am SOMETHING to Allah .. I know that .. Thank you, Allah .. Please bless me .. I just need a time for myself .. Tonight, my brother called me through Skype .. I don't know if I have to accept or decline that call .. Hmm .. I miss him but I don't feel like to talk to someone on line .. Besides, I don't want him to be worried of me if he see my 'not in the mood' face .. I can't hardly smile .. How's that ? Huh .. Life is so COMPLICATED !