O Allah ! What I've done ?

Salam, bloggy ..

I don't know if I'm doing the right thing .. I'm pity of him .. But .. Hmm .. I really hope that he'll read this .. Ya Allah .. I think I had broken his heart .. But, am I going to let him to hurt me again ? I'm scared of getting hurt again ! So scared .. Ya Allah .. Only you know what I'm feeling right now .. I don't want to lose him ! I don't want to ! Ya Allah .. Only tears can describe everything .. I don't know what to do .. I'm feel so guilty .. But .. I don't know ! I just want to cry ! Now, I'm losing him .. I lost everything ! But I do this for some reason ! Ya Allah, am I doing the right thing ? He can't even promise me even a thing .. He just don't want to lose me .. I'm blurr ! I just want to cry .. I can't even think my days without him .. Starting from now .. Why must things goes like this ? Ada abg ka kwn ka .. sama jak .. lps gaduh, suma hlg .. xmok kwn gik dh .. he's the second person asking back for me .. huh ! Ya ALLAH ! What must I do ? Am I going to let him be happy by accpeting his request and let my heart to be hurt again ? Am I too selfish ? When I make a decision for me, I'll have to think twice when things like this happens .. Ya ALLAH ! YA ALLAH ! :'( I will just cry .. I WILL !!